Hello .......
You have gone thru a great deal ... and you shouldn't feel as though you must go thru this alone. We all need some degree of support as we go thru difficult times ... and your experiences do need some trained support.
Three years ago, I went thru renal failure and then found it was the metastisized cancer that was blocking the kidneys. I was in the hospital three times + a rehab center once in an 18-month period.
I would think that the hospital might have suggested some trained support for probable depression. I would highly suggest seeing someone on a frequent and regular basis whether the hospital suggested it or not.
It would seem so appropriate for you to at least have some temporary medication - but that too is for a professional to decide.
Whatever you do ..... don't go thru this alone. And write again here if you have any doubts or questions.
Peace and wellness
Rob & Gizmo