Posted 4/28/2014 10:16 PM (GMT 0)
I do try to keep up with emails, but I'm not the best of respondents. I'll likely reply quickly at least the first time, but then after that it's massively variable. It's absolutely nothing personal; I'm just usually not in the mood. Writing - for me at any rate - is surprisingly time-consuming and draining. I swear it takes me longer than it used to just to think of a few vaguely coherent and grammatical sentences to string together. Even this single, crappy paragraph is taking me forever to write, because I keep on scrapping bits of it and starting again: it's ridiculous and stressful, but it has nothing to do with anyone except myself.
Depression and anxiety not only slow my thinking down to the point where I'm almost an imbecile, they also rob me of any desire to talk. Even at the best of times (which are extremely rare and fleeing), I'm still an introvert. At the worst of times (which are extremely common and long-lasting), I become a total reclusive shut-in. Even just sending a text can feel like a herculean effort; sadly, I have probably lost a friend due to my laziness at texting. What I am trying to say is that when people don't respond, it is virtually certainly not because they dislike you or are mad you. It is because they are too busy, depressed, tired, sick, or whatever, to respond. If they're anything like me at all, they love receiving emails/texts but are not always up to responding.
That said, if you literally never hear back from anyone, that is a bit weird, unless you are bombarding them with emails/texts. Give it a bit of a rest and see if anyone gets in touch. If they are proper friends, they will; it just might not be right away.
PS: KMF touched upon a bugbear of mine. I absolutely cannot stand the way the phone takes precedence over everything. Why can't more people just ignore the sodding thing when it rings, instead of interrupting, eg a perfectly good TV programme, to pick it up? If it's urgent enough, they can leave a message to voicemail, but it never, ever is an urgent message. (Ditto texting too.)