Is this just laziness or is it the depression?

its not laziness, i can assure you of that. i always feel lazy when I am depressed. Just try to ride it out if you can... when you start to feel better you will have more ambition.

hugs, karen

I am glad that you posted this, Cass.
I often (nearly always) get down on myself when I am already down (makes sense, huh?) and have trouble doing simple, ordinary or necessary tasks. It feels like the weight of depression just makes it so hard to get moving.

I like the idea of the gratitude journal for what we do accomplish each day. And for me, anyway, I have to remember that the voice that says I am "lazy" is from my childhood, and I no longer have to listen to it.
Hope

 

A list of things I have put off doing:

1) No bath for 22-months ................ (but I shower)!

2) Cannot find my Kitchen sink - can only see dishes stacked!

3) Clothes to be washed are in - high priority pile & emergency pile!

4) Have not completed Spring cleaning of 2013 yet!

5) I still have one tax return yet to complete and send in for 2013!

6) Dust has turned my interior black glass into light gray glass!

7) I still have 6-boxes (16"x16") unopened - from a move in 1989!

NOW .......... DO YOU FEEL BETTER CASS!!!

 

JB1 - Thanks for the advice of one room a day. At 5:30 I started my kitchen (which is quite tiny) and finished 85% of it. I got almost all of the dishes and pots and pans hand washed or put into the washing machine. Tomorrow I am going to attack the refrigerator. Also, I got the bathtub cleaned out in the main bathroom. ..I just finished at 9:45. The rest of the place still bothers me but I feel like I accomplished something so I feel better. (I just wish I had more energy so it wouldn't take me so long to do it.)

Rob: Thanks for showing me your list. It made me feel not so alone, and it gave me a little bit of a laugh. It's good to know that I'm not the only one who had a sink (plus counter) of dirty pots and pans and dishes. And thanks for sharing the details of your shower versus bath!

Thundercloud - thanks for hanging in there with me. Like you I have plenty of drawers and closet of paperwork that needs to be sorted out and tossed/shredded. Unfortunately, that is going to be at the bottom of my list for now.

I will try to let it go as far as the rest of my place being such a mess but only if I keep following JB's advice of 1 room a day. The problem is it isn't just me here. My older daughter comes home from college on Thursday night and my 14 year old is with me full time. Because I have been like this for so long now she thinks this is okay to live like this and doesn't do any cleaning herself. I want to be able to teach her otherwise.

Well, that's it for now. I'm going to watch a little bit of TV before I turn in for the night.

Night all!
Cass

Hope you are feeling better...

Hugs, Karen

Hi Jkneller,

Welcome to the forum.

Hugs, Karen

Cass, I am so sorry!! Comparisons are pointless, ya know. We have different circumstances, babe. I have a partner chomping at the bit to get me a job (which brings its own pressures, but is ultimately an impetus to action). Also, I tend to be anxious to take on intellectual tasks, not so much other ones.

I still have phone calls I have not made, dishes in the sink, clothes needing to be put away, and I spend way too much time on time-wasting pursuits. I have several bills I am currently ignoring, as there is no money to pay them. I have stopped working out, due to anxiety.

You have a child, and this in itself is active work! A step at a time is all we can do. do one thing, and feel victorious, and then do another. It's all a cycle. It is when we don't do something, feel guilty, and then don't do something else, that the cycle moves in the other direction. It takes supreme willpower to move in the right direction, but once you get momentum, it's easier. Not easy, but some tasks get resolved.

Love on ya. Good working on the kitchen. Want to do mine!!

just checking in to see how you are doing. keep well.