Dont know where to start

I dont know where to start to get on the right track again. I have nothing going on in my day or friends to talk to. Having nothing to do was ok for awhile but my attitude is slowly becoming pessimistic. I have no structure during the day and I feel that its only hurting my situation. I feel all over the place and I constantly clean the house to not feel like Im not doing anything. I do work out and walk etc. It doesnt really help. Ive noticed my anxiety has spiked over the last few weeks. I can tell Im grinding my teeth during the day and sometimes i catch myself sitting and just pulling at my hair with anxiety or smg. All the days are just blurring together..I feel sick to my stomach most mornings and I really need to make decisions about some important things but I feel stuck. Help!

So sorry you are having a rough time.

here are some suggestions for structure.

Book clubs, lists are posted at your local libraries
The Sun magazine has reading clubs
Support group for depression of another diag you might have
Take lessons of something you always wanted to do, such as Art, Music, Pottery Gardening, anything you think of.
Volunteer at something even if it is just one or two days a week
such as reading to the blind at a nursing home

Hope this helps
Peace and courage
Trina