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Posted 5/15/2014 9:55 PM (GMT 0)
My name is Nolafeline and I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I have not felt lively since November 2013. I was taking SSRIs until Jan. 2014 when my doctor witched me to an MAOI because the older drugs stopped working.
For the first 20 minutes I wake up I am o.k. Then I feel like utter crap until I go to bed. All I want to do is lay in the bed or just stare at the Internet all day long.
I am very isolated. I explained to my friends about my disorder and that I am working on it. Yet, when I text to say "hi" I don't get much of a response.
My husband has been very loving and tries to understand. But he doesn't always know the right think to say.
All I can say is that I feel all alone. I have no friends. My heart and soul hurt everyday.
I would like to meet and talk to other with similar problems/situations.
If you could email me back, it would help.
Thanks.

Nolafeline
Posted 5/15/2014 10:23 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Nola,

Welcome to the depression forum. I am curious, have you let your doctor know you still aren't feeling well? Maybe a mood stabilizer or elevator might help you. Something in combination but it seems MOAI's are hard to pair up with other medications. How many ssri's or snri's have you tried? It took me a few before I found what worked. I would definitely let the doc know what is going on and see what he says next. If you don't find help from your present doctor, look for another one, maybe a psychiatrist. In addition to the doc that you have.

I hope you find what works for you. It isn't fun being depressed.

Keep posting and know that the members here do care.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 5/15/2014 10:57 PM (GMT 0)
Hiya Nolafeline I can relate to the friends thing. My friends are sort of supportive. In a way that that they think depression is feeling crappy for a few days, but they try at least. I am also pretty isolated. Outside of work I pretty much hole up in my room and dont really see anyone. Same as you it would be nice to talk to others
Posted 5/15/2014 11:57 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Nolafeline and welcome,

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder in my early 30's but suffered with it since my late teens, I would have massive depressions which lasted for around 6 months then suddenly one day would wake up feeling 1/2 normal, it was a circle. I was actually more in a depression than not. All I wanted and could do was to sleep and hide away.

Does your Dr know how you're feeling?

I've been on all kinds of anti-depressant's, some worked some didn't but finally Wellbutrin saved me, was pretty stable for 3 years before an accident then it had to be almost doubled but it's a miracle drug for me.

Let your Dr know what's going on, it's no life for you and you are hurting.

Please take good care of yourself, big hugs....
Posted 5/16/2014 12:33 AM (GMT 0)
Everyone else is right about letting your doctor know. They can always try a new medication.

Depression can be very isolating. Try getting involved in your community. I don't know if your religious but if so try a church group, volunteer work, book clubs, yoga classes, or any thing where people with similar interests gather. That's a great way to gain motivation and find people to socialize with. You can get through this. You can always come here for support.
Posted 5/16/2014 2:51 PM (GMT 0)
Welcome to the forum.

MDD is a tough thing to have. IF you know the cause you can work on the problem. Mine is caused by childhood abuse.

I see a therapist and it has done wonders. I also go to a local depression support group. I suggest a support group, it takes about 6 weeks to get comfy in one so give yourself a chance with it. It works good for isolation. You are also with people who get what your are going through.

Try to get out every day for a ten minute walk. If you can not get yourself to walk, at least sit on the step of ten mins. Just the air alone will help your mood.

I also encourage you to check out the 4 pages under RESOURCES at the top of this forum, for websites and referrals.

Keep posting it helps, we are here to support and listen.

Peace and courage
Trina
Posted 5/17/2014 12:02 AM (GMT 0)
Nolafeline,

Waiting for the right med to get dialed in is a very lonely path. Especially if this is your first time to get this depressed. I've been where you are. The problem is that everyone is different in terms of what med (or combo of med's) they will respond to best. Hang in there. Something will eventually work. It took me months in the Dead Zone.

When I'm depressed I have little or no desire for social interaction. You do have to push yourself to live an approximation of what used to be "normal". I had not been what I call "clinically depressed" in about 12 years but last year some serious chronic sciatic pain laid me out and eventually the depression bug began to bite. I knew exactly what to do and got out of the pit in relative short order. At least you will have this: Should you ever need out of the pit years from now you will know what worked the best for you.
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