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Posted 7/9/2014 1:25 PM (GMT 0)
It seems like nothing I do is right anymore.

BF was a bit wound up as he left. Something got his blue dress pants, and I have no idea what is is/was. But, of course, it is something I did when washing clothes.

As he leaves, everyday, he tells me to focus on the job search. It makes me feel very anxious and angry when he does this, and I dread talking to him before he leaves. I put in applications every single day. I do not know what else to do.

Today was the handy comment, "You know time is running out." When we were fighting badly about 6 months ago, he intimated that if I didn't find a job soon, he was going to ask me to leave. I, of course, 'read' this comment as referring to that. Whether it has anything to do with it or not.

So, now, lots of anxiety. Trying to breathe and focus.
Posted 7/9/2014 1:41 PM (GMT 0)
Myself,

As for the BF, ttthhhppppttt!

For the job front, I would do the old fashion flood the area with resumes via mail. Get on the internet write down address's of places you would like to work, sent cover letters and resumes. Most places do not post job openings.

You could also go to an employment agency. I found one of my best jobs through a temp agency. They work hard to find you the best pay, their commission is higher with your higher pay.

Best of luck and do not let your BF's issues make you feel like a looser. His issues are his drama not yours.

Peace
Trina
Posted 7/9/2014 2:59 PM (GMT 0)
I agree with above posts. Don't let your boyfriend get to you. He is not your parent and he does not own you. I also agree that moving out might be best. You don't need all the negativity in your life. I think that the more he badgers you the harder it is going to be for you to successfully get yourself out there and find a job. I would personally resent all the comments he makes. But that is just me...

Maybe you should move for employment. Get back on your feet and reassess this relationship. You don't deserve to be treated the way you are...

You are a good person...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 7/9/2014 3:23 PM (GMT 0)
My therapist has said that this job issue has been blown all out of proportion. I tend to agree.

Trina-my thanks for the suggestions. I am headed to the library today to form a game plan, and work on resumes and cover letters. I will go to the job center tomorrow to print them out and assemble them, and then spend Thursday afternoon and Friday going to placement offices. I have filled out applications for them online, but I think drop-in is necessary.

JB-There have been a few job fairs here and there, but nothing came of them. I am not so good in that social-type situation, though I can be quite persuasive in more traditional situations.

JB and Karen-I have been thinking for some months now about taking a break from the relationship. No matter how often I tell him how much I resent and am angry when he treats me like a child, he continues to say things that make me close up. It's funny--he wants me to talk more and tell him more about what is going on. However, I do not trust him to be supportive, and so don't share information.

But, I need to be in a position of strength before I can move out. Which means a job.

Off to the library. My thanks for the support, chawl.
Posted 7/9/2014 5:16 PM (GMT 0)
Myself-

I'm so sorry you are going through this and feeling this way. Oh I wish I lived closer and I could help you.

Myself, I'm not strong, or at least haven't been. Every side swipe comment my ex made were like daggers in my heart. I believed what he said- I wasn't good enough, I didn't work hard enough, I was too dramatic. It crumbled me and I allowed my self esteem and self worth to suffer. Don't be me. Know when to walk away.

I had to get out of my marriage in order to heal emotionally. And I'm on that road. Sure as heck not there yet, but working on it.

Love yourself and protect yourself.
Posted 7/9/2014 5:16 PM (GMT 0)
Myself-

I'm so sorry you are going through this and feeling this way. Oh I wish I lived closer and I could help you.

Myself, I'm not strong, or at least haven't been. Every side swipe comment my ex made were like daggers in my heart. I believed what he said- I wasn't good enough, I didn't work hard enough, I was too dramatic. It crumbled me and I allowed my self esteem and self worth to suffer. Don't be me. Know when to walk away.

I had to get out of my marriage in order to heal emotionally. And I'm on that road. Sure as heck not there yet, but working on it.

Love yourself and protect yourself.
Posted 7/9/2014 5:49 PM (GMT 0)
Myself:

I see all the posts here and they want you to be stronger and I know that can be tough when your low. I'm in that right now. I've tried to communicate to my significant other about their words and how they make me feel. That they need to support my needs and listen and not be hurtful. It's helped a little. Maybe he can be a better mate with communication or him understanding.

A for job, Linkedin could be another option. Might show you jobs in your field or networking opportunities.
Posted 7/9/2014 9:38 PM (GMT 0)
Another source is the Goodwill. They have a career center that can help put you in contact with employers. They can also help you make your resume stronger.

Myself, you are strong. You've overcome a lot and made difficult decisions. I understand about not having the resources to move. All you can you ever do is your best. I'm glad you're in therapy. I wish I had more ways to help. You are a very smart lady. You will get through this.
Posted 7/10/2014 6:30 PM (GMT 0)
am sending many healing thoughts your way m09.
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