Having a rough afternoon

Lisa:

Thanks for all that. It was very helpful to read. I worked out yesterday, but this morning, couldn't get out of bed. I am up now, but not out of the house. I am not sure if I will be able to go work out today. I guess I should turn that into a positive statement, and try, but just feeling how I do. I will try to walk my dog down the block and back, and see, but going out, makes me self conscious, that its mid day, and I am out walking my dog rather than working, or that I look like crap. I know these thoughts are stupid, but I still have them.

I have read a lot of self help material, parts of books, online articles, watched videos and the such. But I still feel horrible and still worry. I hope the meds will kick in harder and help more. I have only 2-3 weeks when I can be this way, then I need to be on my A game, and that worries me.

So thats where I am at. I see what everyone writes here, and I am trying to help others, but I seem to not be able to get over this myself. Each day has different struggles and I am trying to take it day by day, but I know what lies ahead, and I need to be stronger soon.

Thanks for the help and keep giving it, because it does feel better that there is someone listening and trying to help.

Hawk

I have a 6 year old Lab mix. She's energetic, and good one on one with me, but she was an adoption, and has problems while around other dogs. She can be aggressive. Which is why I don't take her to the dog park much, because she will start things with other dogs. I know I should take her out more, but lately its just to do her business and back in the house. I feel awful, but also feel horrible about my current state. That sounds very insensitive and crazy, but thats how I feel lately. I have my good days, but today, I am just in the house, doing this forum and trying to feel better (not successful).

Maybe I should take a shower and see if that helps. Right now, just on my couch, trying to make myself feel better. :(

Oh Boy, Dogs!!!

I took mine for a walk this morning, it was nice. Nice and cool for walking, it has warmed up much since.

I try to walk daily too. Can't always do it but I always feel better afterwards. I find walking her on the leash gives me more of a walk too, rather than a dog park setting.

I hope you all have a good day!!!

Hugs, Karen...

Hey Hawk,

Take it one day at a time... You never know how you will feel tomorrow, you might be feeling better. It is hard to say if the medication will kick in in time, but I would try to start that job regardless. That alone can make you feel better. Feeling of accomplishments.

Like I say, take it slow. One day, hour, moment at a time. Know we are all here for you...

Hugs, Karen...

Hawk. We are going to get through this. I have been praying (a lot) & you're in my prayers too. Idk what your religion or non religion is but I hope you don't mind I've prayed for you.

I've struggled today myself. I did run errands and visited with neighbors and am about to get ready to go to a friends nursing graduation with my husband. I'd rather not go but I'm also kinda looking forward to the distraction. My anxiety reallllly affects my mood and I've battled that today. Finding myself crying out for healing. I've prayed for do many ppl recently for different struggles & I'm selfishly waiting on my turn.

I told hubby today everyone I'm praying for has made great strides in healing (mostly sickness, some with our crap) & when is it going to be my turn! I didn't even feel guilty asking when it's my turn!

Our turn is coming. I know it in my gut but the waiting is not my forte. Patience is a virtue I struggle with on good days. Control too :-/

Monday will be a month for me on my new med Pristiq. I see the Pdoc a week from today. I really hope I can report to him some positives. I HAVE had positives but dang, the bad days sure trip me up sheesh!

Let's keep posting and reporting our positives. I'm getting sick if talking abt the negatives. Law of Attraction!?

Funny tho, so many ppl get better, most if not all, and never come back to report it. So while we are on here, at times it can seem frustrating bc we are only reading about struggles and not successes! I'm guilty though. I often don't journal or even get on here when I'm having good days.

Thank you GOD to the AMAZING forum moderators and the members who have overcome, who still check in and encourage us. If I forget to say it, THANK YOU to all who help whether you're in the storm now or on the other side in the rainbow

Sending you healing and comfort Hawk.

Lisa

Lisa:

Thank you for thinking/praying for me. I am not really a religious person, but do know that positive thought and I believe people thinking about each others well being does help. So know you are also in my thoughts and I am not only thankful for you, but also wishing you the best.

I see people post positive things here, so I know that people do report back about the successes and how things do get better. I also am selfishly hoping its my turn soon. Each day goes from hard to better, but then I go to sleep knowing the morning will be back.

Lisa, its great that you are getting out and doing things and being social and productive. That will help you and get you on the path to a brighter and better mental and physical health. I will continue to try when my will power allows me and ride the storm when it doesn't.

Each moment is a new opportunity.
Hawk

Sorry Karen. Didn't mean to break any rules or be a part of it. Thanks for the support. I know this is a process, just wish it was showing progress and smoother.

Hawk