Update on me

There is a brand new med out called Brintellix. It isn't an ssri or an snri. And it helps with anxiety. There are many other meds out there you can try. I would suggest the snri instead of the ssri because of anxiety properties in it. You need help with anxiety too.

You have to learn to think positive Sean. I suggest some self help books. There are many on anxiety. I just ordered one for a friend of mine that is struggling. We can take meds, but we have to change our thinking patterns.

And we have the tools to do all of this. And other than buying the book, it is free. You have the power You can get better Sean... I have faith in you...

Hugs, Karen...

Sean:

Know your not the only one. I also am going this. I feel like it's getting worse, but I have to believe it will get better. It's hard, but I have to believe. Then I hope I will be able to do the things that will make me better.

I'm here for you. And there are a lot of other people here also.

Hawk

Hi Sean,

I'm so happy for you that you made it through your gig tonight. I think that is something to be proud of.

I can relate to that feeling of losing it, that can be a very overwhelming feeling. I think that you're doing a good job of holding things together as best as you can. I know it takes a lot to be able to do a gig while you're feeling this way but you did it and that shows a lot of strength. I know that even doing little things are hard but you managed to do something very big.

I just wanted to make a big deal about your strength because guess what it is a big deal. I'm hope that you can see your strength. I think once you get to meet with the consultant things will start to get better for you and once you make sure you have the right meds and get any help you may need with the codeine, things will start to improve for you and until then I think it's great that you take the time to reach out.

Know that you're not alone in how you're feeling and know that others care!

You guys are all legends :)

I honestly feel this is it for me and my destiny is to just zone out and lose touch with reality. I think I need to go into hospital for a bit as I am exhausted of trying this on my own and waiting for tablets to work, I cant do it anymore.

The Lorazapam is not working and the prozac is not working so what is wrong with me, consultant said it was GAD as well as depression but I am not responding to anything and I just feel dazed now.

I am going to try go to church today as I know they will pray for me there. I have little faith in what I believe in but I have to go because I am constantly asking God why I am suffering and he is not answering.

Church today and consultant on Monday........I really don't know if I am going to make it.

I agree with the above post. Sean, you have been strong just for posting. You are going to get better. A hospital visit might be what it takes. Then you can be monitored and they will know about the spaced out feeling you have. Make sure to mention that is a major problem.

Whether you go or not, as Heart said, you got a plan... That is a good thing.

Hang in there buddy. Don't give up...

Hugs, Karen...

I am okay today. Waiting for my girlfriend to come over, we are going to take a walk.

Hope you feel better soon. Hope you figure out what is making you feel spacy.

Hugs, Karen...

Hope you had a nice walk Karen :)

Hi Jen,

Is it possible for all SSRI'S to make me feel this way? Maybe I should just come off them completely and see how I feel on my own but I will need to check with the consultant tomorrow now I have an appointment. I really think I need to stay in because I feel like I am getting closer to the edge now :(

How would you describe that spaced out feeling?

Kind regards

Sean

I personally think an snri would help you. But I think a medical doctor or your consultant would know best. Try breathing, in through the nose and out through the mouth. Called smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. This relaxes us. It slows down your heart rate and your breathing. It brings you back to earth. It does me anyway.

Sean, I hope you feel better soon. Breathe...

Hugs, Karen...

Hi Sean,

I was hoping today today would be a little better for you. I'm sorry that your condition is getting worse. I know that feeling of thinking you are losing touch with reality. When things get that bad we have to seriously take a moment to make a positive plan and I say positive plan because sometimes when I get like that my mind sometimes wanders to negative plans and we don't want you to do anything that will make you worse instead of better.

You have to make a plan for this evening and tonight. What do you plan on doing? I know you said you need to stay in because you feel close to the edge, but are you planning to watch tv, read a book or some online articles, do you have any pets, do you like to listen to music or watch videos online, have you had dinner or plan on cooking or ordering something, do you have anyone that you talk to on the phone or maybe text with sometimes, do you like writing or do you ever practice for a gig?

I'm just wondering if there is anything you can do to kind of keep yourself busy or maybe try to put you mind on something else for a little while. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in the morning I'm trying to hang in there until them. I'm watching a few things I recorded during the week on my dvr and I'm checking in on the forum just kind of lurking around and reading. Sometimes I go into a depression chat room and just read others conversations, I don't know why sometimes I can do that for so long maybe it gives me the feeling of not being alone. I kind of have to make plans for each day, the morning, the afternoon, the evening and night. I'm trying hard to make it through each day, so you're not alone.

I'm hoping you can hold on until the morning until you go see the consultant and if you think you cannot hold on or you feel like you're continuing to lose touch with reality you always have the option of going to the hospital. There's nothing wrong with needing help and I think you are strong for reaching out for help for sharing your feelings.

I hope to hear from you soon, you're not alone and you hang in there.

The easy way out? What do you mean? If you mean what I think you mean, go to your hospital right now. They will take care of you and you will be safe.

One of your meds is causing this, not a deteriorating brain or you going crazy. But if you're at your wits end, take yourself or ring a friend and get your butt to the hospital.

Praying and sending love

Lisa

Hi Sean,

I'm glad you're still here in the land of the sane & living. I knew you would be okay because you are very strong, I know it's still hard for you but you're hanging in there.

I don't want you to think about taking the easy way out, especially if it means what I mean when I say that because it's usually self harm and we don't want to go there. If you do get to a point where you are really thinking about taking the easy way out you need to call the consultant or your doctor and if it's after hours call the crisis hotline or you can call 911 or you can go to the hospital. Those are just a few options for you. I actually had to call the crisis line on Friday, I'm not proud of it but I had to make that call.

Just know that you have options and know that you are not alone. I hope this help you out just a little.

Hi Everyone,

I think I meant by the easy way out to just give up hope but not my life, I don't have bottle to do that.

I just seen the consultant and he has advised me to stop all medicine and to start a SNRI called Duloxetine and also changed me from Lorazapam to Clonazepam and said just to take those for now and they are going to come to my house every other day to check on me which is good.

I still feel weird and out of it but I am hoping that will change soon.

How is everyone today?

Thanks loads

Sean

Thanks Karen I really appreciate that. I feel like I am back to square one but maybe these newer anti-depressants are going to work better.

I just need them to stop the depersonalization, the consultant also said for me to read a book called the chimp paradox.....have you heard of that?