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Posted 7/17/2014 4:03 AM (GMT 0)
I know this cycle that comes and go.
Frankly the last 4 months was the longest period of sanity I ever had for a long time.
I almost thought it there is a chance I could get out of it. It was never coming.
Frustration, anger, hatred, disappointment...... they all came at the same time
for some reason. Overwhelm without knowing why, I went into a rage. I chased my husband out.
I demanded a separation. I just want to break things, damage whatever is still intact.
I need to blame someone, something for whatever is happening. it's just crazy.
hate this hate this hate this. This only living thing that I do not hate and doesn't irritate
me is my dog who has been thru a decade of cycles with me.
ye... I will just live with her for the rest of my life.
Posted 7/17/2014 5:05 AM (GMT 0)
hi naan,

I'm sorry this cycle is back again. I know it's hard when a lot of different emotions come all at once. It's easy for things to irritate us when we have a lot going on. Rage is one of those emotions that we have to work hard to try to control or try to control the way it comes out because we don't want to hurt anyone in a fit of rage. Sometimes too many emotions are just too much for us to deal with on our own, we need a little help or support and sometimes professional support is needed. I hope that you have or are able to get some professional support to help you deal with all the different emotions coming all at the same time. It's good that you reached out on here for support and I hope that you're feeling a little better. I'm sending big hugs your way in case you need them.
Posted 7/17/2014 11:00 AM (GMT 0)
Keep your dog close. They give unconditional love, something human's can't do. Only because we aren't perfect...

Try to keep track of your cycles. Could you be bipolar? Or do you think it is just depression? I don't mean JUST, but as apposed to bipolar.

Do you take medications? They can stabilize this.

I hope that things get better soon for you.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 7/17/2014 2:49 PM (GMT 0)
You are not alone. We are here listening and trying to support the best we can.

Have you been to a therapist and are you on meds?

Sounds like you might benefit from some coping skills in Emotional Balance. I have been through these overwhelming episodes myself and found this helps. A book entitled WRITING FOR EMOTIONAL BALANCE helped a lot. opened my eyes to why I was having so many cycles. I kept in close contact with my therapist while I did this.

Each time you go through a good period you get stronger, however coping skills will minimize the outbursts during the cycles.

Peace
Trina
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