Girl you & me both with the impatience. I have never been an angry person but this is really starting to piss me off (sorry for language) so I understand! It's 2014 & we expect instant gratification- at least I do lol! I'm intolerant of being uncomfortable. Who isn't tho, right? My threshold for patience tho is super slim when it comes to this. Especially since in my past I was given one medicine and it worked.
I'm also grieving the loss of friends bc my 3 main friends that I spent time with daily and all lived w/in a 5 mile radius, have moved away or are moving. I didn't expect this grief. Nor did I label it grief until abt 3 months ago. My problem was I thought med pooped out after 6 yrs do I switched and new med made me worse. Been playing the medicine roulette for 6 months now. This whole 6 months hasn't been totally rotten but the struggling times have stunk and I haven't quite gotten over the line to "normalcy" yet. I'm fighting it tho- doing everything they say, taking every pill they try, therapy, exercise, breathing, mindfulness.
Funny thing is, I've always wanted to get back into exercise and try yoga, breathing, meditation, mindfulness etc but always put it off. Funny how this valley has motivated me so I guess it's not all bad?!
I heard a quote today on Super Soul Sunday (I LOVE Super Soul Sunday on OWN network)... "To be broken is no reason to see all things as broken."
Hugs!
Lisa