Frustrated

I'm feeling frustrated. My meds aren't working as well as they used to and I'm in a new job that is overwhelming. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go to work. It's so hard to work when i feel like crap. I want to go back on disability but I'm afraid. Sometimes it takes a while to get disability and I have no way of supporting myself in the mean time. I'm not sure if I'm eligible for state disability as I don't pay into it in my new job. I did pay into it in my last job that was recent though. Anyway... I'm just rambling.. that's all for now.

Well, I believe, if I'm eligible I will be able to get State Disability right away (after 8 days of sick leave). I'm not sure how long my employer benefits will last. I may also be eligible for unemployment and then I could apply for Medi-Cal to help cover medical expenses. But to get on Social Security it takes time. Normally it takes at least a year but since I've been on it before it should go faster. I'm not really sure how everything will play out. It's all very scary to me.