need out of this house! can't drive

around Jan, I lost my drivers license because of my non-epileptic seizures. (the reck was due to a deer, no seizure involved but the cop knew my history and reported anyway bc I lost consciousness after hitting the window) and my Dr.'s agreed I was okay to drive but wouldn't sign the papers because of Liability reasons i.e.:if I had even an unrelated wreck the other party could sue them).

so for months I've been sitting under this same roof-way too long. And I've had a very rough go with illness, pain issues and some injuries. I'm technically not seizure free for 6 months bc during an anaphalatic reaction I was given 3 IV doses of epinephrine (EMT's didn't report giving 1 of those) plus my epiPen injections and my heart rate got so high I went into a seizure. Then after receiving some etomidate(sp?) to relocate shoulder I had some mild shaking (most people do with this medicine) but the ignorant nurse thought it was a seizure, so still I wait on my license. My PCP said he'd fudge the dates, but I don't want him to lie for me and risk getting in trouble, he's too good. Even in my appeal hearing he said, all I need is some Dr saying your less likely to have a seizure while driving bc they are non-epileptic, but no doctor would (have a new PCP now)

any way, I"m 29 and I sit at home ALL DAY. I can't go get something to eat or meet a friend or do anything without assuring a ride. (my family works all day, some work out of town) and I can't go to church(my dad preaches elsewhere and nobody had offered me a ride.) We just moved to a new town so I don't really know anybody either and its hard to get to know people when you can't drive. I was looking at going to school, but with the schedule Id have its hard to get too and from. And the transportation system here is really hard to understand, and doesn't go many places(small town).
And my anxiety and PTSD is so bad I"m afraid to ride the bus really. don't need to have a stress induced seizure on a public bus!!
If I lived in a larger city with more transportation options I"d be better. We don't even have taxi's here.

I get so depressed looking at these walls and feel so alone. The internet is all I have. I honestly don't know what I can do. There is nothing within walking distance. No park or anything. I can't find a church with a bus ministry, my insurance will take me to Dr. appointments but thats it. I'm disabled so I though I could ride the bus that actually picks you up at home, etc but it has to be a mobility disability.

I"m so tired of 1. not feeling good 2.having literally no friends 3.being stuck here all day.
Its like my own kind of prison. Having no productive thing to do is hard. I try listing things on Ebay but I seem to lose my motivation.
I even wonder sometimes if I could drive, where the heck would I go? I have nobody to meet or anything. but at this point people watching at the mall, or going to the park, or finding a new church seem great.

I read, watch a lot of TV, walk in my neighborhood when the pain isn't too bad, & go anywhere my parents go (yeah its cool to hang with your parents at 29). I desire friendship and a relationship so bad.
I can't even get to a councilor because here at the place I'd go you have to call that same morning(8am) to schedule for that same day and my insurance requires 3 days notice.

do you guys have any suggestions????

thanks for always listening.
AM

Post Edited (AngMichelle) : 8/27/2014 3:34:36 PM (GMT-6)

If you have medicaid they offer a transportation service. That service can take you to shop, church, and other things. Call them and see what can be arranged.

Hi AngMichelle,

I'm sorry that you are going through so much right now and I'm hoping that things get better for you. In some ways I can relate to what you are going through, my doctor says I shouldn't be driving right now and that it may be a few weeks or longer before he gives me the okay to be driving. The city/suburb where I live does not have a bus line at all, they took it away a few years ago, so there's no way to get around unless you drive or take a cab. I have transportation but even though I want to drive I know it's not a good idea for now with all the medical issues and complications I'm having but it's still hard to feel stuck and alone.

Even though you only have limited public transportation maybe you can try to take a ride somewhere like a store. church, park, shopping center, restaurant or mall anywhere you fell comfortable going in your area. I also have PTSD and use to have problems with using public transportation so maybe you can ride it in the afternoon when it might be less crowded and I use to feel comfortable sitting up front close to the driver and the front door or if that was full near the back door I guess I just felt safer knowing I was right near an exit or near the driver in case of emergency.

I hope that you're able to find something to help you not feel so alone. I know that feeling all too well and it can be so overwhelming. Know that you are not alone in how you're feeling I'm hoping you'll be able to work something out and get out of the house soon and I'm hoping you'll be seizure free so you can drive again.

Sending hugs your way in case you need them.

Thanks for the kind replies. My insurance will only provide transportation to a doctor's appointment and the pharmacy if you give 3 days notice. I called about the bus for people with disabilites and they said it only applies to people with 'mobility' disabilities

Maybe I can tuff it out for while. Thanks again.