i guess i am a little triggered at the moment. am feeling very down and out. but this is to be expected after such a traumatic event. my thoughts are very displaced at this time. i am okay just my world is a bit rocked. i have lost many people over the years..........i guess i just would like i to end for a bit. i am sad that my mate has passed, although i am very happy she is out of pain. she was on a plethera of meds for nerve damage, burcitus, disk damage osteo-arthritis, knee operations, gnarled hands and feet, and the list goes on. she has had every pain treatment under the sun. i am feeling for her 2 dogs. poor buggers. her son is taking care of them at the moment. she had a lot of other medical probs as well. asthma. this i believe had a role.......her asthma machine was on when i found her. a funeral will happen soon. boy have i been to a few of them. i said to my sis that, not out of disrespect, that i would rather not attend. people on the day i found my mate, friends and family said we will see you at the funeral. i am not good at funerals. i say good bye in my own way. i'll see what happens.
just know that your support is really helping me. this is very difficult as it is bringing up old feelings of those others that have passed in my time. i will be okay. keep well my friends. love ya all.