depressed about death and family

Hi my brother brought up death and how my mom is getting close about a week ago. My dad died right in front of me when I was little havnt thought about death since then I was doing a good job blocking it out. But my mom is my rock and I feel she's all I have in this world I don't know what I would do without her. Now its the only thing I can think of I wake up every morning and throw up I can actually feel my heart hurting. I've never been depressed in my life and its horrible. I think if I could spend time with my family i'd be happy, but my family is EXTREMELY dysfunctional and nobody talks to each other everybody hates each other. So I'm just left here by myself with my thoughts of death. I don't know what I need maybe somebody can give me some techniques to stop thinking about something. Just any help please I need somebody.

Post Edited (depressedtattooguy) : 9/5/2014 10:32:56 AM (GMT-6)

Check out our support links at the top of the page. They include some mindfulness, which can help get your brain out of the anxiety loop, or the obsessive loop, or the fear loop.

It's hard, most of us know. We all go through the loss and then the subsequent questioning of mortality and meaning and love and pain and what-all. Are you seeing a talk-therapist? It can really help having a sounding board who is trained to help and objective.

I wish you well.

That is awesome. Let us know how it goes...

Hugs, Karen...

Thanks everybody I still feel the same but hoping if I continue to talk to him it will help.