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Posted 9/5/2014 6:29 PM (GMT 0)
Lately my depression is getting so bad that I rarely leave my room. I currently take Zoloft 100 mgs. I feel as if I have no place in this world. Lost, crying a lot and big feelings of guilt and remorse. I moved three months ago to a place that I thought would help me. Epic fail! I am 54 and recently had a new grandbaby who will be two months old on the 9th of this month and as of yet have not seen her. I feel ashamed that I was not there for my daughter, ashamed that I let my family down and feel as if I do not "belong" to any part of my family in any way. They gave up on me along time ago so I thought moving would help. I have come to a home of complete sadness where my friend spends her entire day behind a computer and never leaves her room and has even admitted contemplating suicide. If I had known this was the case I would have never moved here as depression heaped upon depression is finally getting to me. Feel trapped as I have no means of financial support to move. I would like any and all info I can get as to how to get out of this. I want my life back and since I am trying to accomplish this all on my own could use anything to point me in the right direction as I feel as if this big dark hole is swallowing me up. Thank you in advance for any info, support or help!
Posted 9/5/2014 6:36 PM (GMT 0)
Welcome to the forum.

the first step reaching out here is a good one.

You can not do this one your own, no one can. folks with depression, anxiety, biplar ect, need a support system.

We need to stay on our medications, see our psych doc and/or therapist on a regular basis.
Build out tool box of coping skills. Medications only do so much. We need skills to get us stronger to get outside, talk to people, approach our families, set boundries, yet still enjoy grandchildren.

There is a DEpression Resource Thread at the top of this forum. Please review the 4 pages there is a lot of info, links, books to sstart with. Mindfulness and meditation have become some of my favorites.

Keep posting here, we listen and support the best we can
Peace
Trina
Posted 9/5/2014 9:10 PM (GMT 0)
So sorry you are feeling so bad.
Like Trina said, we all need a support system. Are you in therapy? It is essential, I think, in helping find ways to deal with situations. I hope you can find a therapist that you can afford at this point.
I don't know your situation, but would your daughter be open to you visiting? Seeing the baby would be good.
Keep posting.
Hope
Posted 9/6/2014 9:01 AM (GMT 0)
talk with ya doc. see if ya can get a referral to a compassionate therapist on a sliding fee scale. keep posting her. sounds like a med increase and or an assessment of your medication is required. be honest with ya doc........hen he / she can tailor the best treatment for you. know that we care. i send warm healing thoughts your way.
Posted 9/6/2014 9:22 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you all for your support. I'm trying to hang on but it is like grasping at straws.
Posted 9/8/2014 11:54 AM (GMT 0)
Prayers go to you . It's not too late when your still living .
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