asking for help

Hi everyone
I am new to the group. I have had depression for may years and it has been stable on medications. Then for some reason about 2 months Depression decided to really show its ugly face and hit me fast and hard. I was unable to do my job as a home health nurse, I could not bring myself to go to my patients homes. I would cry all the way to their homes. I though I had gone insane. Nothing made sense I was doing just fine. I think all the alone time driving for my job got to me and I spend hours crying or just sitting in silence not knowing what was happening to me. I had to take short term disability for work and I see a therapist weekly.

I hit rock bottom and managed to fall even farther to the point I cannot function in the real world. I have days where I am OK and can get t0 the store for groceries but doing that wears me out. cleaning the house is way to much effort and exhausting.

I have had to force myself to tell my family and friends how depressed I am and how I cannot seem to find the energy to do much even though I want to do things when it comes right down to it I just can't.
What I find most difficult is even though people around me know how depression is holding me down I am expected to ask for help. my family and friends want to be there. They say they understand and will do what they can to help but they offer no help. No one offers to help me get stuff done, no one offers to just come and spend time sitting with me. people go on with their lives, they are busy I get that.

As a depressed person that can't make decisions because it takes to much energy and motivation is missing. I wish someone would come to me and say hey I wanna help lets go for a walk, but no no one does. Not even my husband, he feels lost not knowing what to say or do. Why does the person with very severe depression have to reach out to others don't they know that just a text of a call saying hi just thinking about you would be helpful. At least I would know someone cares.

Why are people so afraid to acknowledge depression as real. they worst thing family and friends can do is ignore the depression and pretend things are fine. Makes me feel inadequate unloved, unimportant. I am tired of feeling depressed but I am also tired of asking for help and support.

Thank you Dixie
you are right.
I want to be heard. I don't need sympathy, I don't need to be treated differently or special. I just want and need to be heard. I need validation

I think all of us who struggle with this angst and darkness want to be validated, not judged or pitied.  All we can do is our best to be a kind, loving and productive HUMAN being in today's society of physical "detachment".  That, I'm afraid is only going to get worse.  It's up to us to reach out for professional help (therapy/meds) that allows us to function and thereby focus not so much on our sadness.  I hope you will find answers, SG.

HUGS~~Dixie

Can you get them some literature to read? Possibly???

My family, what is left, aren't all that close so I don't have to explain anything to them. I guess in my mind I Feel it is not their business. Though I have a sister that is bipolar and we do discuss our depression from time to time. But she has it so she understands it.

I think as long as you see your doctor and therapist, you are doing the best that you can. Let the rest fall into place for you.

It is hard to move on. We have to deal with it first, then we can think about moving...

Take care and have a good evening...

Hugs, Karen....