Dependent on your doctor?

Yesterday I went to see my Psychiatrist, I broke down at first(well I didn't even have to break down, he could tell I was not doing very well, then I broke down), so he talks with me for quite a while, I get side tracked as he is talking because he is just such a beautiful man , but he is someone that I have become dependent on, and I don't know if that is just weird.

His office was full at 8:00 am, and I had to wait a bit, so after I had my crying bout, I told him he is getting very popular, he said he wishes he could take the credit for all the people there, but they have a new Psychiatrist etc, and that he will be at that office only ONE day a week, my first words " Are you leaving this office", he said "no" very quietly.

I did ask him, however about the comment I made on the music, and why whenever I get called into the office they have "send in the clowns" playing by Judy Collins, he said "We do?, I don't even know if I've ever heard that song", I told him I forgot he is SO young and that I was just kidding with him, he did laugh, I usually have him laughing every time I go, so then when I leave I feel SO much better after seeing him.

He walked out with me and handed me some samples of Brintellix, just in case we have an issue getting them refilled, I had to ask him again if he was leaving, he said no he wasn't, then I had to ask the secretary when she was rescheduling me if he is leaving, he is the only Psychiatrist I have EVER connected with and he is a man and I usually do not like talking to men, so I wonder if I just feel dependent on him, or do people really get a bond with their doctor?

Yes he does talk for as long as you need to, he has told me you are my patient right now and I will stay here all day if I need to, so he is very compassionate, I do listen to him and right now he is mainly focusing on my medication and finding what will work(when he got into the brintellix and how it is supposed to work compared to other medications he lost me)

I think my major attraction to him was his compassion, and I didn't care for him at all at first, in fact I was looking for a different Psychiatrist. I think I also do not like change, so having to start all over with someone else would be bad, but I have done it before.

Post Edited (brendaboo) : 9/10/2014 9:16:13 AM (GMT-6)

LOL@send in the clowns, and he believed me, he was like "what?"

Cilly, he explained it is very similar to the SSRI's, but it works in other areas also, he said he hesitated prescribing it until he knew exactly how it helped his patients, so when patients started coming in with good progress on the medication, he started using it for some of his patients.

He didn't really get into the science of the medication, but believes it could be "the one" for me , so we will see.

I've looked up tid-bits on it, but hate to get to deep into reading about the medication, because not far below is the symptoms.

Brenda, sounds like some transferance maybe going on here. Very common in these situations. Why wouldn't it. Good looking guy, listening and validating every word you say!

Perhaps, talking to him about this would be good. I had a sexual attraction to my therapist, ugh it was terrible to talk about, once it was done, therapy went on a lot smoother. I had a lot more peace.

Peace
Trina

BE CAREFUL FROM SUCH CREEPS!!!

STOP GOING TO SUCH THERAPIST ASAP,find a new one >

Cianna said...
If that's directed at me cilly I should rephrase that from therapist to former therapist. This was 10+ years ago.

scary ...reading it gives me panic attack ...how you even endured such therapist~

Cianna, I am sorry to hear this. Have you talked to anybody about it? I have had bad experiences with therapists too. I stopped seeing them. I didn't have the guts to press charges and I worry about other women.

It is totally wrong. Especially when you were so young. I had an oral surgeon that made a pass at me while I was still partially under anesthesia. Shortly after that he was sued for molesting his patients.

Experiences like this can make us hard to trust people. I hope you are okay now...

Hugs, Karen...

I know the feeling. I went through something recently with a doctor and still trying to decide. I have to talk to someone about it first. I talked to my therapist. She said they make it hard for women to report and make them look bad. So is it worth it? Though I still am concerned about other women. How far this man will go. And whether or not he actually did anything out of line. There is such a fine line there.

How old was this doc when you were 16? He may have been interested in you actually. Especially if he pursued you out of the office...

It is so hard to say isn't it? I just wish us both the best...

Hugs, Karen

So he obviously found you attractive, but was out for one thing only. I am sorry he did that and was married with kids. Wow... Live and learn I guess... I am glad you can see it for what it is. I am sorry you feel hate... It is an awful feeling, but I can totally relate...

I hope we aren't hijacking Brenda's thread. I think it follows the format though. The doctor/patient relationship...

Some people just amaze me though at the lengths that they will go to to get what they want. All at the expense of a vulnerable person. It really is unfair.

I hope you have a good day and that talking about this doesn't get you down. I guess we chalk it up to experience...

Hugs, Karen...

No one was hijacking at all, I can't see myself telling a doctor I find you attractive, I believe a lot of women do tend to get a "crush" on a male doctor, something about the admiration of their intellect, and for some of us this is the only man we will see in weeks, and I tend to shy away from men, and would never want to let him know that he is someone that I actually look forward to seeing.

I believe at first when I went to see him, he was intimidating to me, because let's face it how many people have a doctor that reminds them of their obsession, Mr. James Franco(you should see my face book page) So immediately I built up a wall towards him, because it was hard to tell him exactly what I was going through.

I wouldn't want him to believe I was a "conflict of interest", or a wacko fatal attraction, because it isn't like that at all, I don't fantasize about him, I admire whoever is blessed with him.

So I make my visits, and he has a way of always making me feel okay, that I will make it. So I appreciate that maybe he sees something good in me, some hope.

He is not flirtatious at all, but he will notice things about me, like when I was losing weight or the color of my skin(he apparently thinks I am in the sun a lot, but it is just my color), and my comment to him was "maybe I have jaundice or something" which he thought was a funny statement.

I guess going from almost despising him at first, to learning to trust him may also be why I feel dependent on him, and that I really believe he just wants me to get better.