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Checking in on you Sean xoxo

I'm ok- had increased anxiety the past 2 days randomly. Annoying. The only thing that has changed was upping the Lamictal on Saturday. The DP was hovering around yesterday too and I got upset and ruminated over it yesterday. So annoying. This too shall pass and I know you understand.

Sending you hugs!


Lisa

Hi everyone,

I hope you have all had a good day.....?

Hugs

Sean

Yeah same....felt a bit weird today if I am honest but I just done a wedding which went really well and now I am home in bed and have no more gigs this weekend which I am kinda glad about lol

Hope everyone had a good day, Karen?

Hugs

Sean

just popping in and saying g'day. i sort of do that a lot!!!! g'day everyone.

Hey Jamie hope you okay,

How was everyone's day?

I have been quite busy in later part of day, not been feeling too bad lately, it's weird with DP as you don't notice you are feeling better, you just notice that you have not paid it that much attention in the last few hours or so lol ....I am sure you can relate Lisa :)

I have a wedding show to do tomorrow at the hotel where I do my gigs so hopefully will get some more bookings for 2015.

Hugs to you all.

Sean

Hey everyone,

Okay so a couple of good days and today I feel weird, I felt not too bad during the day as I had the wedding show and got 5 bookings but tonight I have felt so weird :( do you think the Lamictal could still be working as I only been taking higher dose for 2 weeks?

Hope everyone is okay and has had a lovely weekend :)

Hugs

Sean

I just dont know if I can keep doing this, up and down all the time and worst still not knowing what tablet is making me better or worse. I think the Lamictal may be not helping but there is no way of really knowing is there.

Why does there have to be so much suffering in the world? If this is God testing me then I think I am failing the test now.

Hope everyone is okay though sorry to rant x

I dont seem to know what triggers it Lisa if anything, I think it is closely linked to anxiety or depression but I am running out of ideas. I have an appointment with consultant on Friday this week but I am just so tired and wary and feel so run down that I don't know what to do anymore.

I remember the day I went to see the consultant to ask for Lamictal, I actually felt good that day and that was before I started taking it so what if Lamictal is making me feel worse?

I feel like I am going mad Lisa I really do :(

Do you ever feel like that?

Hope you are okay...

Sean

Sean-

Are you having anxiety/panic attacks still or just the DP/not feeling right?

My anxiety waxes and wanes but Id say it's mostly better, just have the unpredictable feelings of DP/Disconnect. Curious how your anxiety has been?

Hugs,
Lisa

Well. I am not taking sleeping pills and I still have this so who knows about yours. Personally, for me, I'm doubting the Pristiq. It didn't work on it's own so they added Wellbutrin in July & that didn't work. Added Lamictal in August and I started some relief but certainly not consistent or complete.

I'm going to call my psych today & see if I can get an earlier appt than 2 weeks from now bc if I'm going to start another AD, I'd rather get started sooner than later.

Did you DP come right away or a cpl months after the panic attack in Feb? My theory for myself is that my DP/Disconnect started (4 months into the med roller coaster), BC Id gone so long suffering and got scared and then it set in as a protective? mechanism? Of course that's just my theory.

I think our anxiety of not feeling consistent relief from time/meds has frightened us straight into DP.

Um. Don't talk defeat. I get concerned when you say you can't be here like this. I KNOW it's torturous but throwing in the towel is NOT an option. I hope you don't mean literally bc I'll get on a plane right now and yank you by the hair and tell you face to face we ARE going to crawl outta this darn bubble.

I'll let you know what my psych says and you do the same.

I woke up this morning and had a good sobbing cry. It was cathartic. I hold it in so much trying to be brave and it felt good releasing it. I also cleaned our carpets and made homemade soup for my neighbor that just got outta the hospital. I'm going to take it to her later.

I'm like you w/the anxiety. No attacks but a constant feeling of it ever present in the background. I think THAT is why we are having DP/DC.

Big tight hugs to you. Have a good cry if you can. <3

Lisa

Hi Lisa,

My DP started literally one day after I had the bad Anxiety attack back in Feb and I have only had about two weeks relief from it since then. I am pretty sure it is anxiety more than depression that causes it so I am trying to work on that if I can. I have lowered my dose of Lamictal down to 100 mg now as I dont believe it is working and I need to see what I feel like just on the antidepressant alone really. The consultant said last time that I could just stop it but I don't think that is a good idea. I have had some really vivid dreams since lowering it and maybe extra anxiety but I am dealing with it.

I wish the DP would just go away for both of us :(

Hi Oranged, the DP I am getting is basically feeling like a robot and not connected to my own thoughts and the world around me, I dont feel like I am outside my body or anything like that but I dont feel normal at all and I feel like I am going crazy but I have been saying that since Feb and I am still sane.

Do you have it too?

What do you mean by giving up?? If you feel like harming yourself, go straight to the hospital!

If you have 100mg tabs, snap them in half and take 150 if you want to lower. I was allowed to lower by 50's & had no problems.

When do you see your consultant next?

Get on here and talk if you need too. I'll be checking my email for notifications. You are going to be ok. You're not an idiot. You're just trying to feel normal again. I understand.
Hugs!

Lisa