New ingredient added to the mix

Oranged-

That's great advice. Not only bc it's comforting but bc its TRUE! I know bc I've been there before and alwayssss have come out on the other side. Also, my therapist said to do EXACTLY what you just said to try very hard to imagine what it was like before bc it will be that way again.

In Christianity, it says you will be rewarded doubly for enduring the storm. Not an exact quote but basically not only will you come outta the storm but you will come out even better than before.

Thank you again for sharing Oranged!

Sending Love-

Lisa

I only dropped the dose for two days but it was a big drop, I took normal dose last night and I still feel terrible this morning. I am losing hope so much in ever feeling better, I am trying to see the consultant today if I can and have just emailed him. I feel like I am going mad and that this is something worse than depersonlization.

I think every human being can only take so much suffering before they look for a way out but the truth is there is no easy way out.

I hope you are okay Lisa x

You are going to be ok. You really are. You aren't going mad. Depressed & anxious, but not crazy.

Let us know what the consultant does w/your medication. Personally I'm thinking the Pristiq isn't working for me bc I took it a month alone and it didn't work by itself and have had to add things to it and my moods are still not consistent. A med should work on its own in my opinion. Addons I think, imo again, should be to boost it if it starts to poop out.

That's just my theory from this year.

Hugs sean. Please TRY & interact with anything outside of your own mind even if it feels terrible. Sitting in your room with only your thoughts, will only add to the misery. We don't need anything extra like that to add to our crap.

Sending Love,
Lisa

Sean- that is GREAT news and he's EXACTLY right!!!!!!

Idk if you feel it but I feel VERY positive about this visit!

I'm in psychotherapy and am LOVING it! Started 3 weeks ago. I wish I could go 5 days/week lol.

Sean, my friend, you ARE going to be ok and get through this. Your consultant is exactly right. My psychologist said the SAME thing which is why I've been staying busy even when I don't feel like it and feel spaced out and weird.

I'm seriously so excited for you. It just made my mood so happy

Hugs,
Lisa

CBT is great too Sean. Please get your butt in therapy asap!!!

I've never heard of Lee Evans but I just googled him & see he's one of the top stand up comedians in England. I love a good stand up comedian! Who're you going with?

Have a Fabulous Friday night. You're taking a great step forward by getting out tonight.

Hugs,
Lisa

You're on the right track Sean. This is not going to go away overnight. Your consultant told you the golden ticket of information. You HAVE to get out of your own head and stop isolating yourself in your room and thinking about it 24/7.

Whether that's going back to work or socializing more with friends or making a schedule daily of "to-do's", you have to stick to it. I KNOW it's hard when you feel weird and while your meds are getting adjusted. But you know isolating yourself and ruminating isn't working so it's time to change up your behavior.

It probably won't feel good for a bit but you must do it anyway. Each small step you take to get outta isolating yourself with your thoughts is that much closer to recovering.

Why aren't you seeing a therapist regularly? I don't agree with the one who said it'd be better to see them when you're not disassociated. Right now is when you NEED to be seeing someone. Maybe you can find a more helpful therapist and you should go no less than once/week. That's just my opinion from experience.

I'm patting you on the back for you since you're focused on feeling weird and not that you went out and socialized. That's huge! Now take this pat on the back and and go get some restorative sleep <3

Hugs Sean!

Lisa

Karen are you there? not heard from you in a bit, hope you are okay and was wondering if you could have a word with the site admins and see if they will add depersonlization to the drop down list above so more awareness and support may come out of it?

Hope everyone is okay

Hugs

Sean

Hey guys,

Lurking a lot.

Sean, send admin an email. [email protected]

I don't know if they will add a site, but I do know in anxiety they talk about depersonalization some. You might find some answers or people going through the same thing.

Lisa, I hope you are well. I see you struggling some too. I am hanging in there, still going down on the meds before I make the switch. I hope you both feel better soon. Keep hanging in there and keep working on coping skills. Mindfulness helps with depersonalization some. I hope it helps you both.

Hugs, Karen...

Hi everyone,

Sorry for late reply, I have had quite a busy weekend. Have not taken any Lamictal since Thursday night and dare I say I feel a bit better ? I am not sure what it is like to feel normal but I def feel a bit better from Friday night where I felt terrible.

I hope everyone has had a good weekend?

I think if they did add depersonalization, then it would have to come under dissociative disorders as that is basically what it is although it can just be part of depression and anxiety or both I guess.

I am meant to start Mitrizapine soon but I need to let the lamictal clear out of my system for a few days so I see how I will feel on just the anti-depressants I am taking.

Sorry for going on.....hope everyone is good :)

Hi Lisa & Everyone,

Sorry I have not replied in a couple of days.

How is everyone feeling?

Hope you are all well :)

Sean

Sean buddy-

How're you doing? Still praying <3

Sending love-
Lisa

Hi Everyone,

Sorry for late reply. I am so glad you are feeling better Lisa and have not had any xanax in so long, that is seriously great news and I am so happy for you :)

I decided to give the Mirtazapine a go after coming off the Lamictal and as expected I feel pretty spaced out and been sleeping most of day and having some very weird and vivid dreams lol

I forgot to reduce the Duluxetine so I will do that with my next dose and fingers crossed I will get there.

I hope each and every one of you has an amazing weekend :)

Hugs

Sean