i have a lot happening at the moment. oh well. i did not win anything on my lottery ticket. i am still wrecked. i am going to check ut the melatonin this week or next. need to go to the hospital pharmacy to pick up the lamictal. i have some government paperwork to submit, might do that tomorrow. need a head shave, if i can afford it. feels kind of blaah. i like my no1. i can barely keep my head up as i type. i am still waiting to hear back from the hospital, re water works. i am so tired. no wonder i have stuff all hair, i have ripped it all out over the years. i will speak with mum about
bro soon and i will let you know. i am clearly depressed and in a mental funk. booo. i am too tired to function, but i am barely doing it. i guess i have been coping by not coping. i have no spark, no kick, a dead battery, not flat but dead. this is just the combo that many of you also experience. other disorders illness and pain. it never ends. all about
$$$$$$$$$ got to arrange my glasses, that will be money. i am playing tunes but they are just passing me by.
i read a chapter of a book i am engrossed in. not bad, me sitting down for 30 mins straight and reading, man that's a victory. i am quietly shutting down again. i am tired, not just physically but spiritually. i wish i could go and take my lady on a retreat. i just miss her is all, i guess you were waiting for that. my sis is unwell, my bro, my mum with her stuff. it is not a problem for me. it is my head. well i have spoken enough rubbish for now. thanks.