bored with life

the stress, the sadness, the weakness, the loneliness... none of that compares to the pure boredom. I don't want anyone to misinterpret what I mean when I say boredom. I work full time, I have returned to college and take classes full time. in theory, i'm busy. inside, i'm bored. I try to do things that are 'exciting' or are 'meaningful', but just get bored asking myself 'does it really make a difference if I do this or not'.

the answer is a resounding no. I'm depressed, that's clear. but when I consider doing something about it, I find myself thinking 'what would be the point'? I feel as if everything is just to keep busy but no true meaning for it all. like a game of monopoly. extremely fun.... for like a half hour, but at what point do you say 'game over' and put all the pieces away.

people keep trying to help me see the purpose of it all, yet fail to provide one good reason other than that people will miss me. ha. no friends or close family so I find that unlikely. they'll cry for a minute or two, then get back to watching football. in fact they would likely resent me for making them take a day off of work to come to my funeral.

so i'll get off my soapbox and ask, what pathetic reason have people given you as to why you sound continue to play this game? i'm running out of reasons

Hey Cad...I think we all understand how you're feeling. My career keeps me busy, as do family and community obligations.  I find that I am quite good at solutions for others, but not for myself.  I can bring happy moments to others, but I fail myself. 

I make the effort to look around me and see the blessings.  There are MANY that I take for granted.  When I start to feel self pity, I am reminded that my health can get much worse (and often does).  So often times I have to remind myself to be thankful for what I DON'T have.

I have older siblings, but we are not close.  I yearn for a close relationship with my sisters who live within 5 miles.  They aren't interested. It breaks my heart, but I can't force them to spend time with me.  My life could be so different if I had just one close friend to do things with.  I don't.  My husband is a wonderful companion who actually LOVES to do "chick" things...I love him dearly, but want more.

I don't think any one of us can convince you that life is "worth" living...but we put one foot in front of the other and move forward.  It's HARD.  It can always get HARD-er, believe me.  Look outside yourself.  Perhaps find a way to serve others who are less fortunate, the elderly or the indigent.

Dixie

It's not the destination, it's the journey.

Many people say, "Be in the moment." Think about what that means, really. It's the moment you are so engrossed in a book, a movie, a video game, a piece of writing, a football game, whatever, that your thinking self is gone, and replaced by the MOMENT. As I tell students, Don't remember the past, or worry about the future. Just be here, now. It's a wonderful feeling.

No one can tell you why you should discover reasons to alleviate your boredom. You are the only one who can provide that reason. Or maybe, a therapist could help you figure out your reason, after you two figure out why your boredom exists.

I dunno. I am rarely bored, and understand why I need to feel better. I need to find more moments that have the joy of life in them, and discover how to avoid the stupid-head moments of boredom and irritation.

Being bored is a low level anger. So, why don't you find interest in your family, your job, your schooling, your sports?