reunion

Today the 8th is reunion of my ex boyfriend (pat) dad's (fred) death it's been 4. Since he died I took of fred care in the last few months of his life because fred husband is my cousin dave and ask me to help out. Because dave mom had cancer and was dieing at the same he needed an extra hands. Fred told as he was dieing he wanted to be with his son pat and take care of him we are no long so I feel like I let fred down again because I didn't save from his cancer and I'm no longer with pat taking care of him. I was supposed to save fred from cancer and his not here because of 4 years I couldn't save in 3 months what kind of person I'm a I promise I would

Oh my dear friend, hugs to you. Cancer is a very nasty business and comfort in the end is the only way to save anyone. Cancer is not something you can save people from. I know that somewhere inside you know this. After four years the guilt that you carry is not guilt but loss, please seek inner forgiveness as you did the very best that you could with the cards you were delt at the time. As for the ex, the choice to not be together has been made and no guilt needs to be felt in that respect. Please be kind to you things will get better after you understand that this guilt is not your burden to carry.

Thank you all I just wonder sometime why some people make and others don't and why are so many monsters down take thier and leave us the good we need more and a lot less bad

Post Edited (Angel191) : 10/9/2014 10:49:53 PM (GMT-6)