Daily Check in thread for all!!! #104

Hi all,

JAMIE- GOOD FOR YOU ON NOT SMOKING, MY WILL IS VERY WEAK AT THE MOMENT SO I AM NOT DOING THAT GOOD. I AM GLAD THAT YOU ARE DRINKING MORE WATER TOO, ALWAYS GOOD TO REPLENISH THE OL BODY. STAY STRONG MY FRIEND.

Karen- I hope that everything goes well at the pain doc. Let us know how you are, we are all her for you hun.

CheleL- Ahhh 7th grade! I can remember that and it was a fairly good year for me. Lol I am glad that you are having such a good time with the kids, so awesome. Hats off to all the teachers and sub teachers you all make the world smarter. Oh my is that a word? Hmmmmmmmm........

I am feeling pretty good this morning despite only a few hours sleep. Son was up and down all night trying to be sick, eck. He is having restroom issues too, so water and warm showers will help him, I wish that helped me! Still not "going" very much but I am "going" a bit so I know that once I start it's easier. I am tired and still in bed because I can be :) I need to get paper work done today and a few calls then clean my kitchen and move things around my room, again! Big day and long weekend. Giants are going to the world series! My house was very loud last night for a few hours! Lol So proud of this team, they fought hard and came out to win! On to KC! Lol well need more sleep and then clean clean clean. More soon. Stay strong and I love you all

Good morning to all!!!

I feel like crap today, but going to push through it with a walk. I hope that the weather holds out for me.

I guess things aren't going as I planned and I have to accept that. One more day of learning. One more day of trying to push through.

I hope all of you are having a good one. Mine will get better I am sure. Keep on keeping on. Slow and steady wins the race.

Who agrees???

Hugs, Karen...

My poor Karen and HT.

Yes I agree Karen! I am trying to push through my now daily back pain. I don't have a choice. I am doing all of the old things just to try and make it through and so far, so good.

Nothing going on today. House cleaning, laundry, and I think I am going to treat myself today and get my nails done. Why not?

My love to all!
chele

Yep, Karen...I understand.  I've been pushing for over 2 decades, with several hemi surgeries to prove it...along with destroyed spine and knees. I have physically pushed to get the things done that no one else cared enough to do.  I have (and always will) pushed, like moving mountains, the intrusive ever present thoughts from my thinking.  Like HT, I'm God awful tired of pushing. 

I know we ALL are. My mantra is that I have to either "get busy living" or "stay busy dying".  Those of us who live with constant debilitating pain (that has changed the trajectory of our lives) AND deal with anxiety and/or depression could easily convince ourselves to take the second option.  We can't allow ourselves the "luxury" of thinking that way.  We must work that much harder to find (as I say) the flower seeds amongst the manure...the positive in a world of negative. 

My "positive" for today is that my dear husband has baked a banana cake=) YUM.  We bought a newfangled silicone pan that's shaped like a Sunflower.  He planned to frost with a simple syrup banana/nutmeg glaze.  He was so disappointed just now because it STUCK to the nonstick pan=(  I told him "no worries...we'll just go ahead and eat that chunk while it's hot.  We did...yummy. 

We're still in our PJ's having a slug day, with plans only to watch our beloved Rebels game tonight!  My tummy is full and my eyelids are heavy.  I think maybe a snuggle on his shoulder and a lazy afternoon nap is in order. Then sandwiches, chips and 5 layer dip for game time.  Yay!  I don't have to heat cold Taco Bell with candy corn for dessert=)

Weird, I know...but somehow in my mind I can see all of my cyber siblings on this forum...together here at our house (instead of it being empty and lonely) doing what I desperately want my flesh siblings to do.  We'd all, whether football fans or not, gather with good game food and drink to share laughter and fellowship.  At some point, we'd pull out our goofy masks, costumes and such, and do a conga line throughout the house.  Jamie would be in charge of the sound system---What time can y'all be here?

Hugs~~Dixie 

Dixie6 said...
Yep, Karen...I understand. I've been pushing for over 2 decades, with several hemi surgeries to prove it...along with destroyed spine and knees. I have physically pushed to get the things done that no one else cared enough to do. I have (and always will) pushed, like moving mountains, the intrusive ever present thoughts from my thinking. Like HT, I'm God awful tired of pushing.
I know we ALL are. My mantra is that I have to either "get busy living" or "stay busy dying". Those of us who live with constant debilitating pain (that has changed the trajectory of our lives) AND deal with anxiety and/or depression could easily convince ourselves to take the second option. We can't allow ourselves the "luxury" of thinking that way. We must work that much harder to find (as I say) the flower seeds amongst the manure...the positive in a world of negative.

My "positive" for today is that my dear husband has baked a banana cake=) YUM. We bought a newfangled silicone pan that's shaped like a Sunflower. He planned to frost with a simple syrup banana/nutmeg glaze. He was so disappointed just now because it STUCK to the nonstick pan=( I told him "no worries...we'll just go ahead and eat that chunk while it's hot. We did...yummy.

We're still in our PJ's having a slug day, with plans only to watch our beloved Rebels game tonight! My tummy is full and my eyelids are heavy. I think maybe a snuggle on his shoulder and a lazy afternoon nap is in order. Then sandwiches, chips and 5 layer dip for game time. Yay! I don't have to heat cold Taco Bell with candy corn for dessert=)

Weird, I know...but somehow in my mind I can see all of my cyber siblings on this forum...together here at our house (instead of it being empty and lonely) doing what I desperately want my flesh siblings to do. We'd all, whether football fans or not, gather with good game food and drink to share laughter and fellowship. At some point, we'd pull out our goofy masks, costumes and such, and do a conga line throughout the house. Jamie would be in charge of the sound system---What time can y'all be here?

Hugs~~Dixie

count me in DIXIE in my Black pj's rolling to HT music and your your roof is shaking by loud music and neighbours complaining who cares ~~

i AM DYING TO EAT that banana cake ...recipe plz !!!

getting hungry here

Gd Morning Everyone,

Karen: How are you doing today? How was your app?

Dixie: Sounds like a nice lime for us. Hope you enjoyed the banana cake. I like banana cake and muffins.

Michele: Hope things went well with the guy. I think keeping your expectations low is best for now.

Jamie: Good to hear you're cutting down on the caffeine. I rarely drink caffeine.

Jessica: Hope you were able to fall asleep and get some rest.

Myself: Your Halloween suit sounds fun. Do you go trick or treat? Lol

Hi Trina, Cilly, and everyone else.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend. I got poisoning Friday night, so I had bad diarrhea

first many healing thoughts to those doing it tough. i am better, a little. banana cake, nice, tunes i can do, let's lift the expletive roof off!!! love the spoon (myself) i eat with whatever i can get my hands on!!! sometimes just my hands!! sorry about the shingles in the eye dixie. i hope the virus settles for you asap.

ps, i'm coming to your place for a feed mate. sounds , like totally yum!!!

hang in there my friends. my strength is always renewed by you guys sharing your strength in pushing through and beyond. you are all strong, flail your swords, sing the battle cry a high, move forwards, shields high and ATTACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello my friends.

Karen&Jamie- I am sorry for the struggles. I am here for you my friends.

Very short, laundry today and then getting back to our schedule so things are easier on my son and I also. More when I can. Stay strong and I love you all

sleep is eluding me too. 2.25am!!!!

Hi all,

Short again. Son is acting up AGAIN. I took a ride with my friend today and I felt so free, it was a 5 minute ride that we have taken many times but I needed just that time from my house. My son (butt) gave me poop doing his homework, ugh and now he won't go to bed so I am so get that done. Nite all.

Stay strong and I love you all

Hey Everybody...I guess I'm too late for Monday check-in, but super early for Tuesday.  Today was rough for pain levels.  Of course that pain spirals me into the depths of depression.  I am flailing the sword, HT, but battle weary as y'all can relate.  My health issues are non-curable.  Everything surgically that can be done has been done.  I am in moderate to severe pain every waking hour of my life.  I am currently taking Oxycodone 15 mg x 4 per day.  I'm just afraid of the media hype, and of course addiction as I will need pain management for the rest of my life.  I cannot afford the extended release form (OxyContin) because I have no prescription insurance. 

As you can tell from my signature, my life is not worth living.  I live for my husband's sake.  I'm just going through the motions...have been for 20+ years of fighting this disease that took my life.

Okay enough "whine" without a cheese tray.  I prefer the state of denial when I can muster the strength to get myself there=)  And I prefer to delude myself with thoughts of fun and fellowship and good food.  So, Jamie and gang...Why aren't you here yet?

My dad used to say that "The sun will shine tomorrow and it will be a better day".

Hugs~~Dixie

Hey Jamie....I saw after posting that you got your new PEEPS=)  Great news...SO HAPPY for my turtle friend.  Adjustment period will be brief...clearer vision, infinite.

Thank you, my sweet turtle conqueror=)  I feel the same about you!  Yes, I desperately need the pain management I've avoided all these years.  I've suffered/suffer more than I can convey.  It just baffles me that pain meds are SO outrageously expensive @ $400+ per month for OxyC.  I have no clue if I can even tolerate the med IF I could afford it.  For now, Oxycodone will have to suffice.  Gr-r-r-expletive!!!

Hugs~~Dixie

Good morning all!!!

Not feeling too bad, have a little pain today. But that is to be expected.

I have an appointment with psychologist today so wont be on much this afternoon. I hope everybody has a good day today. we are suppose to get a slight warm up and then very cold next week. Not looking forward to that.

Take care all, keep posting, it gives us all something to look forward too.

Hugs my HW friends!!!

Karen...