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Posted 10/21/2014 2:42 PM (GMT 0)
Karen-have a good appointment, and I hope today is a low-pain day. Do something nice for yourself.

Chele-football, good. Hope today is a good day with the kiddos.

Dixie-Luckily, our experience of the world always changes. Don't like what you got? It'll be different tomorrow, that's why it is so vital to keep. moving. forward. Hydro works well for me, and tramadol not so much, but I am not comfortable being out and about on anything else.

Jess-Get that lil' dude in line before Chele and I get him in our clutches.

Jamie-Congrats on new eyes. Man, I need an appointment badly, but cannot afford it at the moment. I have had glasses for extreme near-sightedness since I was ten, and haven't had them checked in a few years.

AV-I hope the job is going wellish, and it is distracting you from your other junk. If you are lurking, that is...

JB-How's the job search treating you? Again, you might be in stealth mode.

Today is lots of 'stuff'. Need to go get meds, need to go to the Job Resources center and do some printing, faxing, and gathering. I want to finish at least 4 apps today. I woke up in some pain and stiffness, neck, spine, shoulders, lower back, etc. So far, pain meds are not cutting it.

Tomorrow is exciting, as it is my first day subbing in a private religious school (Quaker). I need to get things in order. Thank the great deity that they start classes at a normal time, meaning NOT 7 am.
Posted 10/21/2014 4:59 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks, y'all, for your kind words.  Yes, the "big gun" meds have been offered more times over the years than I can count.  I've refused, not because my pain doesn't warrant, but because the meds rob me of my cognitive process.  Architectural Design leaves little room for error, and even less for do-overs.  Disease has robbed me of SO much, I refuse to let it rob me of my career.

I'm told that stress will slam my coffin, sooner rather than later, if I don't get a handle on it.  I finally surrendered to pain management, which seems more stress inducing than pain relieving.  And so it goes.

Anyhoo...A little Halloween humor...Whaddaya get when you "goose" a ghost?  A handful of sheet!?!

Hope y'all have a "full size candy bar in your treat bag" kind of day=)

~~Dixie

Posted 10/21/2014 7:18 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Everyone,

Just realized that my last post here was incomplete. I know I completed it but don't know here it went. Old age is catching up on me... smhair

Karen: Hope your app goes well.

Michele: Long work day... Hope you get some rest. Glad to hear things went well with you friend.

Dixie: I'm sorry about all your dx. Don't let that get you down. I know it can be tough at times but hang in there. You do make a difference here.
Nice riddle. I like. Lol

Jessica: Hope you will feel better.

Myself: Read about the job. Great news! Hope you get through with everything today.

Trina, Jamie, everyone else-Hello.

My Blackberry crashed last night! It seems as if it's something with the main board. ALL my contacts are there. I don't any a recent back-up.
Did not have any plans to buy any new phone this year. My car insurance is due next week. It's high, it's going to empty my bank accounts. Not looking forward to paying it but it's a must.

Wishing everyone a great afternoon!

UA
Posted 10/21/2014 8:27 PM (GMT 0)
Hugs and kisses, UA. My insurance will be coming die sometime soon. Argh.

Dixie-hope you didn't take my last post as being snarky. I just re-read it and the tone in my head was far different that it came out. Grrr.

Well, I have to report I finally did it. I sent off my paperwork for a transcript analysis for a teaching license. I have been avoiding this badly, and finally decided that this was just plain stupid behavior. Fear and worry made me procrastinate, fear that it would be turned down.

I feel lighter having done it. Plus, my therapist will be happy.
Posted 10/22/2014 2:58 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all-

I'm my way home from college tonight, I began to cry. I'm sad...

I feel that im never going to find some one to spend the rest of my life with. I'm never going to fall in love.

I don't want to be alone the rest of my life...
Posted 10/22/2014 6:55 AM (GMT 0)
CHELEL. it will happen. myself, good work on doing ya teaching stuff. UA. g'day mate. hi to everyone.hot here.
Posted 10/22/2014 6:57 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

Myself- I am thinking that maybe he needs more than just me. I did lay the law out last night and now we have to make sure it sticks. Pray for me... yay! No 7 am classes that's way too early. Have fun. Good for you on your next steps in teaching.

Dixie- I do understand about not wanting heavy pain meds but with pain sometimes it is needed. I will not take a narcotic as I have a very bad family and personal history with addiction and overdose. I hope that you find something to help you and soon too. Oh and I love the joke!

UA- I know what you mean about insurance, I no longer have a car and while I miss having it, I do not miss the insurance payments that's for sure. Hope that you can get your phone to straighten up so you don't have to buy a new one.

CheleL- I sometimes feel the same way. I have also come to the conclusion that when I am supposed to have someone in my life, it will happen and not a moment sooner. Don't rush it, let it happen how and when it should. Things will pick up for you soon hun.

JAMIE- HELLO MY DEAR! HOW ARE YOU? HOW ARE THE NEW EYES WORKING FOR YA? SLEEP WELL AND BE CALM AND HAPPY.

Well here it is Wednesday and it feels like a Monday again. My son has been a real booty head and I am not sure how much more I can take. Same ol song and dance and I don't like the steps or music! He has gotten his phone taken away until he proves to me that even with the thing he will be a good child. My stomach has been on the fritz due to all the stress and heartburn has been so bad. So tired. Well going to sign off for now. Have a good day and night all.
Posted 10/22/2014 8:36 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Jess and everybody...

I am sorry your son is being a booty head Jess, It always comes down to the phone doesn't it??? Some things never change. When I was a kid, that was the first thing that was taken away... Not to make light of it though. They do so much on a phone now, taking it away should be an effective way to go... I wish you the best...

Trina, I hope that you are feeling better. I spent a lot of today outside. Yesterday went to the therapist...
Let me know how you are doing, shoot me an email...

Michele, It will happen when it is suppose to. You are young and have a long time for a relationship. Don't lose hope. This has to be a very special man, sometimes it takes a little while for one to be assembles. Ha!!! You will find the love of your life when you are least expecting it...

Jamie, I hope you are getting sleep my friend. We had a nice day here. It was chilly but not too bad, the sun shone most of the day which is rare for here lately. I climbed the hill behind my house. Took my breath away, but I did it!!!

Dixie, I am in the process of going off of narcotics now. Not fun... I am glad you are staying away from the strong ones. Going off is hard. No need for the added aggravation in your life. I didn't realize how long I had been on them, a long time... Time for a change and some cognitive adjustments. I understand where I am at right now is the hardest part, hopefully it will get better soon...

Myself, sounds like you are making strides. I am happy for that. I hope you get the job of your dreams hon... Keep hanging in there and never give up my friend...

UA... Glad to see you post. Sorry about your phone. I think it was your phone. Paying bills stinks and what's worse is to have an unexpected one. We have car troubles at the moment but hubby is working on it.

Take care all... I hope I didn't miss anybody...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/22/2014 9:49 PM (GMT 0)
Outside is nice, Karen. It must be a lovely fall day up where you are. Here it is rain, cold rain.

Jess, I am sorry to hear of the kiddo's issues. Their job is to learn boundaries, and they do this by testing how far the Mom fence extends. Stand your ground, be strong and don't give in!

Chele-Being alone is better than being in a bad relationship. It's over-simplified, but true. You just got out of the stinky relationship, so you know of what I write.

Today I was at the Quaker school. It was actually quite nice, though the kids were a high-spirited bunch. I actually have a stack of drawings for my fridge from the pre-K/Kindergarten class. LOL-I have never spent any amount of time with kids this young. Tomorrow I will be out of the house at 6:30, so I enjoyed the little respite today.

Cold and achy. My fingers are stiff, my back and shoulders hurt, and my colon is not cooperating.
Posted 10/22/2014 10:02 PM (GMT 0)
Get the bed buddy out Myself if you have one. They come in so handy. I am sorry you are in pain...

It was nice here today but it was brisk. It wasn't windy though so it didn't seem as bad. I enjoyed the outdoors a lot today...

Getting ready to take a shower. Then relax the rest of the evening.

Have a good evening all!!!

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/22/2014 11:10 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all!

Thanks for the good wishes.

I've done a lot of thinking and searching the last couple of days. What I've concluded is that beating myself up over past relationship decisions. I'm very brutal on myself. Negative self talk, etc...

I've also decided that these feelings have been exaggerated due to my pain. I'm literally at a pain level of 8 all the time and that is with medicine. I'm not on opiates and truly don't want to go back on them. Dixie I completely understand. The issue is that no pain med is going to take the pain away. It can take the sharpness off the pain.

I don't know how other people handle pain. For me, I hide my pain. No one wants to hear me b*tch everyday with how horrible I feel. So, I smile through it. I'm freaking exhausted mentally and physically trying to fight it. I just want to scream. And I guess because I keep all that pain hidden inside, it wrecks havoc on my depression and outlook.

I've called my counselor and left a message for him for an appt. I've made an appt with my gp to talk about pain management until I can get in the ortho November 25.

No med is going to alleviate the pain. Bone on bone and spinal stenosis can't be cured with meds. So I know I'm looking at surgery. Of course I can't afford it. The recovery time off work is at least 6 weeks. I have short term disability but it won't pay the bills. But I can't afford not too.

Just feel very defeated.....
Posted 10/22/2014 11:33 PM (GMT 0)
I hope you find something to help with the pain Michele. I hope you are able to get the surgery that you need.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/23/2014 2:57 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all,

Son is doing a little bitty bit better tonight. My eyes are very dry and my face is flush, good allergies! NOT! My shoulders and neck are very sore tonight for some dumb reason. I am very worn-out and really not liking it at all. Well I'm off to bed, more tomorrow. Stay strong and I love you all
Posted 10/23/2014 4:12 AM (GMT 0)
many healing thoughts to jess and others needing some.i hope today is a good day for everyone. still getting use to have glasses. sis said head pain will pass. got a bit of kip, then the water works went ballistic. oh well. got tunes playing and hung some stuff on the line, bins out and am slowly tidying up. dishes to do, they are soaking. was a lovely day yesterday today is cool and gloomy, tomorrow apparently better. weather people on and off for a bit. there is a saying here 'if ya don't like the weather wait 5 minutes'!!!. 4 seasons in one hour let alone the day. take care my dear friends. am feeling a little better, i hope a little more kip and the iron pills pick me up. still taking things slow and steady though. bye bye, see ya soon.
Posted 10/23/2014 6:03 AM (GMT 0)
Hey y'all...It's technically Thursday, as I totally missed Wednesday check-in.  Today was super crazy, both professional and personal.

I'm sorry for those who are struggling with chronic pain.  As stated, I am too.  I realize that NO medication is going to completely eradicate the types of spinal/joint/BOB pain or the projectile vomit pain with pelvic issues.  I'm a realist.  I can no longer function in an upright position without some degree of relief. Just SOME amount of relief, rather that tooth-grinding, white knuckle pain every moment of every day of my life.  I only wish I were over-dramatizing...NOT.

I send HUGS of support, whether you are suffering emotionally or physically.  Chelel...I don't want you to feel lonely=(  There's someone for you...maybe it's just not right now.

Myself---You didn't hurt my feelings.  I've grown accustomed to your blunt responses.  I take no offense.  No harm...No foul=)

Trina, Turtle, Jess and Karen---So glad y'all are making progress, getting past the hard part, and moving toward better days!

UA...Things just seem to CRASH when our funds are low and our STRESS is high.  I hope you get it all to work out.  I feel ya, for sure!

I care about ALL of you.  I'm just beyond exhausted with family crap piling up and contract deadlines to meet.  I've got to either feel better or learn Dr. Jack's technique.(and I don't mean Daniels)

Halloween Riddle:  What did one casket ask the other casket?  "Is that you coffin?" turn

HUGS~~Dixie

Post Edited (Dixie6) : 10/23/2014 12:09:36 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/23/2014 8:56 AM (GMT 0)
all of my healing strength i send to ya dixie. i might be a soldier but you are a warrior, and i have known only a few.
Posted 10/23/2014 3:25 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all, healing thoughts for you guys that are struggling.

Chele, I did read you one post a few days back. Honey, you don't have to find someone right away, there is so much life to live first.
I did not find my John until I was 28, then we were just friends! Finally we got married at 29.

Live you life for THIS day, enjoy the gifts of NOW and the rest takes care of itself.

Peace and hugs
Trina
Posted 10/23/2014 4:47 PM (GMT 0)
2 hours of scary dreams sleep. am up. will try again in a bit.
Posted 10/23/2014 5:57 PM (GMT 0)
Hot tea, Mr. Turtle.

I am glad you didn't take offense, Dixie. I am pretty matter-of-fact. And, I think it is the weather that is flaring pain all over. The front has moved through the mid-Atlantic, finally, and the pain I have had the past three days is lessening.

Trina-glad to hear the pain is a little less.

Karen-I did pull out my bed buddy, and have been using it nightly all week.

Classes about over for the day. Had lots of kids who had me in other classes, and so it was a pleasant day. I need to get gas on the way home. Feeling so-so physically, and a little down mentally. I am so very tired of being in limbo.

An relationship update: Things have smoothed out significantly in recent weeks. BF finally started an AD, and now he is far more relaxed, more focused, and more upbeat. We have spats, but the tension of the last year has eased, somewhat. Let's hope this trend continues.
Posted 10/23/2014 5:59 PM (GMT 0)
LOL. Here is a job posting that just got sent to me.... for a CIA Paramilitary Operations Officer/Specialized Skills Officer

https://www.cia.gov/careers/opportunities/clandestine/paramilitary-operations-officer-specialized-skills-officer.html
Posted 10/24/2014 11:15 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all

It is only 4 am here and I am up, AGAIN. Oh man. Sleep is not my friend I guess. Went to my son's school yesterday for the parent teacher conference, oh my gosh! My son is getting such bad marks! Not turning in homework that I know he has done and not bringing all of his homework home! I am beyond mad. I am so tired of all the crud that he has been pulling and now this! I am so sick and tired of it all and so stressed out that my heartburn never goes away. Grrrrr. Dad has gout in one of his hand! Ouchy. He is on a steroid, I told him to go to work, but has to be off til Monday. Crud! Stay strong and I love you all
Posted 10/24/2014 12:04 PM (GMT 0)
keep strong my friends. may the weather ease for you guys getting a blast.
Posted 10/24/2014 5:43 PM (GMT 0)
Hey Y'all...

Just wanted to check in, literally, for a quick HELLO EVERYBODY.  Things are even more crazy in my already crazy world.  Phone calls started Thursday afternoon from my mom's nursing home (never a good thing).  She was raging, screaming, cussing at everyone...threatening bodily harm because she wanted to leave...of course she CAN'T.  They FINALLY gave her an injection of Ativan, which is what they should have done to begin with.

My insides are trembling, as I delete my "vent" because I don't want to verbally vomit onto y'all.

I prefer to think "happy" thoughts, but this is my reality.

HUGS and HOPE~~Dixie

Halloween Joke:  How do you repair a broken jack-o-lantern?  You use a pumpkin patch!  turn

Posted 10/24/2014 6:38 PM (GMT 0)
Cute Joke Dixie!!!

Hang in there...

Thinking of you...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/24/2014 8:40 PM (GMT 0)
I'm on leave from work because of health issues. It will be December before I can come back. My knee is more unsteady and work felt that it wasn't safe for me to be at work. I understand their reasoning but I am not happy with it.

I want to be more communicative but it takes forever for me to even be able to work up to writing this much. I do check in and read about how you all are doing. Those of you struggling, my thoughts are with you and I wish I could help. I want to be a better friend and more supportive but I just can't seem to do it despite how hard I try. Its like I'm low on gas and just getting up everyday is sapping me dry. I am sorry for letting everyone down. I am trying, though.
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