no more karma.

This thinking is wrong my friend. The evil comes the those that caused the trauma. Facing and processing the trauma that is now causing the anxiety is the answer to peace.

No easy process let me tell you! There is hope however, I have seen glimpses of it. Meditating, I have seen and felt the strength and peace, it is there.

Today in therapy I realized I have dropped the need to please my sister; whom I have not spoken to in 4 yrs but the need wass still there fighting me. I have won, one more battle.

And so we go one Happy Turtle, true and steady.

Love, hugs and peace
Trina

Awwww your post literally made me tear up, I can so relate to some of your feelings and you have found "happiness and love", this is something I crave, but don't even know if it is attainable for me.

We were taught from a very early age that you "reap what you sow", we didn't call it Karma, but I know a lot of people refer to it as that, and I strongly believe in that law, and I have reaped a whirl wind from some of the things I have done.

Bad things do happen to good people though, and it just happens.

I wish you peace!

thanks my friends.

ps. brendaboo, of-course it is attainable for you. it just happens in it's own time, this bit sucks. many healing thoughts to allof my friends out there.

hey, you are a unique individual of this earth. you are a good person, know this. that person who will come into your life will be a very lucky person indeed.

Chelel,

What a great thought, I was pondering this myself yesterday afternoon.

So easy to believe our negative thought patterns, listening to voices from long ago. We know that are not true. However, so easy to slide into that old worn grove, of yes, it must be so.

NO! It is NOT! Jamie, Brenda, Chele, everyone, it simply is NOT.

We let the past [who what where when] win if we listen to these feelings and voices. It is so simple, close the eyes, breathe and say. This is a lie. This is a lie.

CBT does work. eventually being the key word. Persistantly also, because there is always the next negative thought coming. It gets better though.

We are unique and strong people, why? Because we seek help and fight for peace in ourselves.

Love and comfort.
Trina. (anyone want to borrow my soap box?)

Trina-

This week has been brutal for me. All week I've called myself a freaking idiot ( the other f word really). I was completely focusing on the past. I've cried more this week than in three years. I know what triggered it but with my back pain, I wasn't strong enough to fight it.

I had a teacher friend hug me while I bawled. She is a very self centered person but I saw a new side of her. She said the kindest words to me: how I handled my divorce with such dignity and class, what a great mom I am ( she even said that she looks at me and tries to be the mom I am), how my students love me. Of course all of that made me cry more. But, I deflected everything she said because it's not how I see myself. I feel so vulnerable, so weak, so pathetic. I don't deserve happiness and love.

I KNOW this isn't true in my mind, but my heart is just destroyed!!! I'm trying to practice mindfulness- sometimes it's easier than others. I'm taking off work Tuesday to go to counseling. I always put it off too long because I think tomorrow I'll feel better, I'll be stronger. And then it doesn't hsppen. So I'm taking charge.

I know what it's like to be in the middle of this tornado of self torture. Please, my friends, let's reach out to each other. No one understands each other like we do. Let's lean on each other!

here for you guys.

thanks for that jet.

at 4.02 am i say thanks.