I can finally say that this school week was the roughest i have had since coming to college. I have endured a lot this week, from almost being de-registered off the school's system to starving myself because of depression. None of which i have had the courage to tell my already depressed parents. The school was having (well is still experiencing) "technical difficulties" and my ID# was amongst the many that was "randomly selected". Anyways! i'm glad my name was cleared. Thanks be to God.
My mom is not working (because her yearly contract at a school she was teaching was not renewed) and my dad is a paraplegic so you can understand the strain it is having on me mentally and financially. I can barely remember the days when we were more financially stable, it has been over 5 years since my father's unfortunate accident and since then life as i knew it was turned upside down.
I went from being a somewhat "happy" child to this... where i am now in life...
sigh
but i feel as if this was the path for me from the get-go and no matter how much i regret how my life is now, i can say that it has made me stronger in more ways than one. I had to be strong for my mom, my little sister and my dad. I cannot express how much that man means to me. He has shown me to never give up even when you are on your butt majority of the time!
And that my friends is why i feel i should share this. I could have given up so many times this week and every time i wanted to i remember that i have my family at home encouraging and supporting me, which helped me in surviving it all.
"They see me smile but they don't know what i feel inside" - They Don't Know by Chronixx.
