scared

is it just okay to be just scared. i am figuring that this will, in a stuffed up way will stop the anxiety / panic,maybe i will just get more scared? these blood results. the hospital knew of thus before my heart surgery. jan-feb. i mean i am petrified something is amiss. doc is looking at bowel cancer / possible polops and other scary things, with scary names. i mean!!!!!!!!! i'm to scared to walk into the clinic. i just want to curl up into a ball, be warm and be left alone.

just need a bit of TLC.

happy to face it. need to know what it is etc. and everything pertaining to it. cheers.

thank you my friends. bed time. mirtazapine is working!!!!!!!!!!!

Jamie- I am sorry for the troubles. Stupid scares like this make anxiety happen! I know it is hard but if you don't face this it may get worse. Not to scare you more but the help is there sweetie take it. No matter what is going on you will be all good and stronger in the end. Here if you wanna chat vent or whatever you wanna do. Love ya my friend.

Yea it's ok to be scared! It doesn't feel good but it's normal.

I am sending you a big hug, healing & much peace <3

Lisa

So glad to hear you more sprightly now, Jamie.
Sleep DID help!

~ Joyce

going to lock doors before bed. hardly do. there was a murder up the road yesterday. i mean this is a rough part of town. a lot of government housing, there are some lovely people here, but then there are some feral ones. a lot of d.a. problems. i HAD to take this property, it was a 2 and a half year wait and i was rotting in a men's shelter. my sis is down here, so that makes it better. just playing some tunes. done some dishes, so that was good. diabetes in feet sore tonight. have been for awhile. you get that. kay i will just moan and say that i am completely sore. bye.

slept maybe an hour am up. bathroom break and feed. am comfort eating way too much. cheers. back 2 bed in a little bit.

7 hours of sleep is awesome! Yay for sleep! My gosh I wish that you could move, don't want anything to happen. Stay safe.