Posted 11/14/2014 9:05 PM (GMT 0)
It started well. Then, the front office booked me to take two classes during my 'off' periods. They had a different lunch break than the grade i was with. The teacher there didn't have enough articles, so I spent half my lunch break copying them. The machine jammed. I felt myself begin to flare, as I got more stressed. Between the cold and the stress, the pain started. Also, I missed a couple of days with my UC meds, and I had no chance to use the restroom today. This is just random irritation.
Then, I finally opened my email to upsetting news. Nothing that will change the world, but a disappointing thing.
SO, I just scarfed down a pastry, when I know I oughtn't. I am trying to keep away from crying, and eating anything else.
I keep telling myself it's a down time in my life. It will get better. It will improve. The same thing I tell to others, "You choose how you look at events." So, I am trying hard to choose that this might have knocked me back, but I move forward again. I might feel depressed right now, but that can change, or at least become better if I stay in control of managing my feelings. And, most importantly, I am not defined by any one thing, and cannot be compared to others. I need to love myself, regardless of how I feel right now.
Sometimes, this mindset is harder than others.