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Posted 11/26/2014 6:28 AM (GMT 0)
I have been listening to music from my past and I have just been so sad to think of how happy and excited I was to find love and be happy. I have many blessings in my life, my son is my biggest. Yet my heart is broken, it hurts like heck!!!! I want someone to love me for who I am. I am so depressed to be alone and have no one to love me, no one to hold me in my time of fears or sorrow, so I hold myself and I place a fake smile on my face so no one sees that I am dieing inside. I am sad and lonely and just hurting so bad. I will paste that smile on as soon as I am done with this and hide my pain from everyone. I will stay this way and not show this side as it does no one any good. cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry
Posted 11/26/2014 7:44 AM (GMT 0)
jess. i feel for ya. my fiance is 12,000 air miles away. i know that we have each other, i hear ya. but i do say this: it came about by not looking. and more so it happened in it's own time. do you know that i too had the same exact feelings as you. i had to first love myself, i wasn't doing this fully, don't know about you, but after i did things improved for me. anyway, love is a ball breaker. it will happen when it wants to. and i went through the misery of having them busted a few times-if ya know what i mean!! then there have been sad things to. but when a love comes knocking it knocks loud. it will for you. i never did think for me. never thought i'd get engaged, let alone travel overseas twice now and planning to move overseas. keep smiling, just think how amazing it is when you meet that person whom you will love and whom will love you. it's a bugger as love dosen't play by any time rules. keep strong.
Posted 11/26/2014 2:07 PM (GMT 0)
Well said, my Dear Shelled Friend...

Jess, the holiday season can be SO VERY HARD on everyone, but especially those of us who suffer with depression.  For me personally, this time of year makes me feel so isolated and alone.  I am so very thankful for my husband of almost 35 years, but I LONG for my extended family to gather for at least Thanksgiving.

I know...Mine is a different lonely, but as Jamie said...Love will come along for you.  Until then, we're here for you.

HUGS~~Dixie

Posted 11/26/2014 3:05 PM (GMT 0)
Oh Jess-

I understand very much so. At times, I am very hard on myself. Why am I not worthy of being loved? Am I such a horrible person that I don't deserve love? I only let these episodes happen for a short time.

Sweetie, we both deserve love. We both deserve to be treated like queens. We both deserve to find our soul mates.

AND IT WILL HAPPEN! The right person is out there for us. Our paths just haven't crossed yet. I believe in destiny- we both will find our soul mates.

The first thing we need to work on is ourselves. We must love ourselves. We must wake each day with the intent of making ourselves stronger, full of confidence.

A man is not going to complete me- I don't need that- im already complete. But, I do want someone to share my life with. And I know it will happen!!!

hugs!!
Posted 11/26/2014 4:30 PM (GMT 0)
Jess, so very true on both posts. I met my husband after 2 years of not dating and when I did meet him we did not like each other!
Became friends through a group of people eventually and went out together when no else could make it and we wanted to get out.

When it is meant to happen it will, try to work on yourself in the mean time. Give yourself the TLC you would give to a friend or loved one. Do not bottle it up. You deserve it more than anyone else!

Peace
Posted 11/27/2014 5:28 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you everyone. I still hurt but not as bad. I am just going to let the cards fall where they should. I am going to fix my health and my teeth then I am going to get out and better my sons life and mine too! I am sick of being alone and scared of everything. DONE!!!!! Thank you all again.
Posted 11/27/2014 5:46 AM (GMT 0)
:) happy face for jess.
Posted 11/27/2014 5:56 PM (GMT 0)
You go Jess!! We are here to help you!!

Hugs!
Posted 11/27/2014 6:23 PM (GMT 0)
Good for you Jess. As long as you keep your son's best interest at heart, you can't go wrong. The rest falls into place for you. Take care of you and your son...

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Hugs, Karen...
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