Traumatized

I have suffered with depression, major anxiety disorder and PTSD. After the terrible experience at my doctors office last week I can only say I feel "traumatized", I can't snap out of it, it keeps playing over and over in my mind like a terrible nightmare. I did call the doctors office to tell the office manager exactly what happened and how I was treated, apparently they don't care.

What does when do in this situation? I've tried some of the techniques to help me but I literally feel traumatized, especially being my doctor never would give me a straight answer as to whether he was discharging me or not....

Brenda, you can contact the AMA, American Medical Assoc.

For yourself, stop those thoughts in their tracks, won't do you a bit of good, except pull you down into the black whirlpool.
Tell your self, It is over. I survived. I am strong. I will report him to everyone I can. I will keep asking, how, where and when. I won't back off. I have rights!

Place the anger where it belongs.

You are a person, not a victim, not a slug, not a 'nothing'. So pick yourself up, brush your beautiful self off and walk with the head held high!

Peace and strength!
Hugs
Trina

Brenda,

I read your thread on the A/P forum. I am so sorry for what happened. But I do know your doctor has wanted you to cut ties with your daughter, is that right? Your daughter did act inappropriate while there. I really can see why he was upset with her. But you aren't her. She really did make the situation worse and I really think you should stay away from her as much as possible until she gets some stability in her life and self. This isn't helping you at all... She is completely negative energy, you don't need that.

I am hoping he wont dismiss you. It is a horrible feeling when that happens. We depend on our doctors so much. But it does sound like he will take you back. I would return if possible, you said you have been seeing him for a few years and it is hard to start over again with a new psychiatrist. It is your psychiatrist, right?

Brenda, you honestly can't let your daughter bring all of this drama into your life. You have depression, you don't need the drama. This is totally bad for you..

Do you have public transportation where you are? We have what they call Dial-A-Ride. It is a bus. It is not a lot o fun to ride, but it does get you where you are going. Maybe you could start something like that if it is available to you. Sometimes things aren't real convenient, but if we don't have a vehicle, we have to endure it. I don't have a washer and dryer, so I have to go to the Laundromat. It totally stinks, but it works. I do have to go soon and the weather stinks right now. I keep putting it off. But that is besides the point.

I just want you to list your priorities in life. What helps you, what is hurting you right now... That will give you some direction. Are you journaling? It really helps to keep your thoughts straight. It reinforces who we are... Brenda, you are an awesome person with a lot of struggles right now. But honestly they aren't as bad as they seem.

You may choose to see another doctor, but think of all the stuff that you have to go through for them to get to know you and know what you are dealing with. I think your present doctor really has your best interest at heart. Think really hard before you change.

If you were to blame anybody in this situation, I would think it would be your daughter. She really messed things up for you. I think it is not excusable. That is just my opinion. I know you love her, but I know that she has caused you a lot of sorrow. You don't deserve that...

Know I think the world of you. Do what feels right to you... I just offered my opinion of what I read that you posted... This is all really up to what you feel comfortable with...

Hugs and blessings...

Karen...

I all really stinks doesn't it??? I guess I wouldn't want to go somewhere where the staff was rude. I get very uncomfortable in those situations. I pick up on bad vibes easily and it makes me feel very off. I had a nurse once that made my blood pressure go up. I tried really hard to be friendly with her but she would have no part of it, all business. And scolding me for high blood pressure. Ha!!!

It is so difficult in situations like this. Try to relax and not let it bother you. Give yourself some time to just be... Keep the peaceful energy going... Don't let it ruin your days... I think it will work out for the best, as I am hoping my situation does too. I truly hate changing doctors especially if I have been with them for a long time... It is hard for me to get comfortable with them. I did find a primary care physician who is really nice. Not what I was anticipating. But that part worked out good. I am just waiting to see where the rest of it takes me. I do believe that even bad things happen for a reason, it just takes awhile to find out what that reason is... So keep hanging in there... It will get better.

Hugs, Karen...

Ha!!! Brenda, glad you can keep a sense of humor through everything. I ended up finding a pcp at the urgent care when I went in for a uti... He is very kind... That makes such a difference. And when he said he would take me on as a patient, I was so happy... I take so many meds for blood pressure, blood sugar and cholesterol. I didn't have anybody for that for awhile, but had many refills on my meds. I was happy for that... It is a very unsettling feeling when you get dismissed by a doctor. I truly hope things work out for you. Somehow I think that they will. I think as long as we are trying, things eventually work out. It is just the time in between that is hard. So hang in there...

Hugs, Karen...

Yes,. knowing is better. Sometimes if you catch things early it saves a lot of regret later...

I hope you have a wonderful evening too...

Hugs, Karen...