Posted 12/9/2014 12:51 PM (GMT 0)
I am a regular on the ulcerative colitis forum but occasionally come on here because I have bee suffering with depression for the past year since `I got sick.
My colitis has been active since March this year and after numerous attempts on different drugs, and a couple of short periods of remission whilst on steroids, I have started to flare again. My nurse has said that maybe surgery to remove my colon is next but I disagree as my condition is not that bad to warrant surgery, It is just being stubborn and difficult to treat. She mentioned that if my current drug does not work, then surgery will be looked at or a stronger drug. I can not go on the set of drugs called biologics because my condition is not severe enough so that NHS will not pay for it. However if its not that severe then why suggest surgery??
I am so so so sad that I am still battling with this condition everyday and living in constant pain. I have had enough and am so scared that I may need surgery in the future and it may be the near future. I still want more kids and am only 32 years old. I feel like my life is taking an awful route and I can not see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. Just darkness.