a bit of a stroll.

i am off to find a rock and a pond.

The quite trickle of a distant shallow stream and a good rock a comfortable flat one ,in close, not too wet not too dry , surrounded by a bed of fallen leaves to coushion foot fall not to disturb the silence in which minds wander freely and seek not solution but maybe just perspective. And from perspective a quite resolution or may just a dire plot. Such possibility can be hatched in the quite serenity of a stream upon a comfortable rock. Remember to stay grounded to that rock which can keep us grounded to this horrid joke called reality. When I don't like my role in the story I'm apt to re write the script. Dipping ones head beneath the water changes prospective also just keep you nose in the air ... Sniff wait until it becomes a healthier sent then repeat as nessesary

it does sound awesome. thank your writing that, and for you all. i am severely depressed. not eating much, i am in pain. i thought i would have a few days away. not sleeping, isolating. i will try and post.sort of exhausted mentally. stuff has sort of hit me now. love 2 all.

Jamie- Sleep my shelled friend. Sleep and rest knowing that we are here to protect you while you recover. Soon the peace will wash away all of the troubles away and things will be restful. No more worries little buddy we have taken up fight until you can again. Sleep


Everyone- We have to fight for Jamie so he can rest. Stay on guard and stay strong.

I eat very little when I hurt ... In fact if it weren't for prednisone and benge eating I just might starve to death and never notice. I don't feel hungry and even looking at my favorite foods make me go " who cares" but you have to eat my friend maybe a nice fishy snack or salmon or something full of protein. Your brain needs it. Wether you want it or not if you don't eat meat hey nuts seriously nuts almonds walnuts etc easy to get one down at a time when you really are not that hungry. Do you take supplements ? They say flax seed it really good for us " bluesy " folks. Ok isolating that's my gig and not in a sharing mood ok ? ( lol) try not to isolate yourself too much ( I know turtles are solitary ) but you have to not bury yourself in the that shell. It's a defensive mechanism not a coffin OK! It sucks to hurt. It sucks more to hurt mentally. It sucks to be the little Dutch boy with his finger in the crack in the dam. Sounds to me like your trying to be a champion in a sport that is meant to be played by a team and this is just exhausting you.
So think of this
I saw a movie once about Morther Theresa
When she was young and hadn't started her charities
She saw the poor and she began feeding them her food and water
She passed out and ended up in the hospital
A nurse in the hospital chided her.
She told her ... " how can you help them if your dead ? You have to take good care of yourself then you will have the strength to care for them."

Good advise ... Look what she went on to do ...

nice day, walked. disposed of some meds i no longer use, said hello to a bloke up the road, put my bins out, got clothes of the line, not bad since i had a **** night. got my shrink in just over a week, will have a chat. got unes cranking. live y. malmsteen!!!! and i have seen him live!!! he is in australia at the moment, i seen when i was 17. it was a pub, i was not legal, 18, and they would not let me in, so i hung around, the cops were passing by and the security, goes get in inside but no drinking. (this was early malmsteen-eclipse stuff) i did not drink and had an awesome night. having a coffee. just had some aspirin as i feel a bit pasty. cheers.

when the pupil is ready the master will appear. make me scrummy tucker and so will i!!! less over thinking-actually de-cluttering the house lately, clear house, clear mind.

Jamie- It is fine you call me Jess. I just needed another change in name is all. Hope you are feeling better and it stays that way my friend.

If a cluttered desk is the sign of a cluttered mind...
What does an empty desk mean ?

If a train stops at a train station... What happens at a work station ?

the train picks people up from the station to the work station, the desk is clear, and the job for the day is done. from the work station we take the train to station and get of with a clear mind.

it's absolutely BS, but it was the best i could come up with. i always liked a clear desk at work.

house is getting there. my desk is not too bad. ditto to not having a clear mind.

thx weary. u 2.

i like the cleaning fairy with her wand!!!