KC,
Have you tried mindfulness yet?
It really helps when depression hits out the blue like that!
www.mindful.orgIt does not take much practice and is easy to put into your daily life.
Do hope you are feeling better today. Self-compassion when those bad thoughts come. I sure know what those are like. I have the scars to prove it. Not worth the time or money it takes to get over the action.
One of my favorite says is "Why continue to punish the punished" You deserve so much more.
Peace and comfort
Trina