Feeling Meh

I got divorced after 13 years of marriage and have been living with my boyfriend for 2 years.  He is disabled and cannot work.  I go to work everyday and am gone from 6 am to 6 pm.  When I get home I am tried, and still have to do things around the house.

My boyfriend often says that he loves me, but I don't feel like he appreciates me.  My husband and I were equal partners, and now I do all of the work.  My husband used to buy me gifts for holidays, birthdays, and for no reason at all.  My boyfriend has no money so he never gets me anything.  He is supposed to cook, but rarely does.  He has some anxiety and doesn't like to leave the house, so we don't go out to eat or to movies or anything.  He is disabled so we can't go for walks.

I feel so blah.  I don't have anything to look forward to.  The warming weather does not excite me like it should.  I find it hard to get interested in hobbies, so I'm often bored when I'm at home. 

I wish I had something in my life, but I don't.

I think if I were alone I would be OK because I could do my own thing whenever I had free time.  Unfortunately, that is not the case. I have to take my boyfriend's interests and feelings into consideration.  Maybe I just need more time alone.

I am not in therapy currently (other than for meds every 3 months).  I may look into returning to therapy. 

My BF was in a motorcycle accident 2 years ago.  He shattered every bone in his leg and his thigh muscle became detached.  He walks with a limp - but not far.  And he is always in pain.

I think I might look into counseling.  I benefited from this in the past and found it useful.

PS: Movie night sounds fun!