Hi Sadsunshine and welcome
I'm married and have 2 teenagers and also suffer from depression. It gets espacially bad in the winter when the sunshine is limited where I live.
Wow sunshine, loosing a brother and a child is very traumatic. One of my brothers died so I can identify with you on that one but the child I can't even imagine (((hugs for you))).
Do you have a good friend to hang out with and go for coffee? Have you talked to your dr. about
this? Do you think you are to the point where you need anti-depressants? Sorry for the 30 questions but I'm just trying to figure out how to best help you. We're here to listen so please post again. Hope the rest of your day goes well