Want to get better, but...

The anxiety and depression are so crippling right now. I am too scared to take medications. Too upset and angry to try to find another therapist. It feels so hopeless. Why did she have to put so much crap in my head about being alone in the future if I don't change? Like who says that to someone as treatment, really? All I wanted was someone to help me feel better about what I've been through and instead I feel like I just have more problems now. I can't stop the fear and hopelessness I have for my future. I don't know what to do anymore.

Wing,

don't know if you saw thing on your other post. So I will copy it here:

I am sorry that is dark and foreboding for Pb4 and Wing.

I know how you both feel, I was abused for 15 year by 4 members of my family.

Darkness comes a lot to me, giving in seems so easy, as if it is the only answer. BUT IT IS NOT.

I have daily nerve pain in my head, neck and upper back from the abuse along with the other dx you can see in my signature. Chronic pain CAN be managed and learned to live with. So can horried memories.

If you were strong enough to survive, you are strong enough to stay.

I use mindfulness as a cornerstone tool. Takes some practice, however, it helps reduce pain, anxiety, emotional unbalance and reduces my dissocciation episodes.

www.mindful.org

is the website I use.

Also if you do not want to or can not see a therapist I suggest reviewing the following site

moodgym.com

We all have to be proactive in our healing and reducing our suffering. No one can do it for us.

There is a wonderful short book I have entitled 'NO MUD, NO LOTUS' it talks about suffering and how we can use it to find happiness possibly joy in living. Yeah, I thought what you are thinking. You have to read the book, you might just change those negative reactions like I did.

I wish you comfort and strength
Trina

WingZero,

Your therapist was probably stating things as she/he saw them. Maybe trying to get you to move on an issue. Putting a fire under your butt so to speak.

As Jamie stated, we do have to be proactive about out mental health. You are not going to get anywhere if you don't start working on it.

Do try medications, if they don't work you can always stop. If you have side effects they go away in a couple of weeks. If they don't you stop the medication. You have to try...

I want to see you feeling better. But the only way that is going to happen is if you do become proactive with your mental health. If you had diabetes, you would take medication for that. So what is different with your mental health? It is just as important.

Do try to feel better. Learn some CBT. Take your meds, make positive plans for the future.

I hope you feel better soon.

Listen to what Trina has to say. She has some good information for you.

Hugs, Karen...