depression is hell. we get that.

Alright, depression is hell. We get that. It is cruel, etc, etc. I have actual moments of complete happiness-sometimes it is mania, but causal from being happy!!! Even in my darkest moments I have had a glimpse of happiness; sounds indifferent, maybe even wrong-but why, are we suppose to be only depressed, and not truly so if we say hello to someone and even smile!!! Even if it is with gritted teeth and our face is cracking because those facial muscles are being forced to move!!! Now, this has nothing to do with self harm, but a classic black sabbath track rings true for me. 'killing yourself to live'. We are too chaotic with the concrete jungle and it's protocols. The paradise that once was is now concrete, and it can never go back-welcome to the concrete jungle. So in cyberspace, skype, instagram? I said to someone that sounds instant!!, fb, twitter this and that tweeter that. Pen and paper, gone, written letters gone. So we go with the times. Just remember that you can be happy. Me, small amounts, but in all reality, with my cracked body and mind, this is the happiest stage of my life. Just a thought.

We all can chose some things. In my little world,being here and in the present is an important thing.And I have found that being present makes attaining happiness easier. Internet is no substitute for reality.

99% of people come to window for information ...
It goes like this ...
" can you write down the address for me ?"
" there is a pen and scratch paper right there . I will give you the address."
" but what do I do with that."
Blank . Don't smirk.
"Write down what I say "
" onetwntyeastsntafayboulvard...wait when does it end???"
" let me talk to your Siri ...please.

Brilliant!

The older I get, the less hearing I have = people speaking faster and happiness fleeting.

Ah, happiness is a personal thing. I personally choose to focus on contentness. That feeling somewhere between comfort and peace.

It is so very pleasant there and at time true happiness visits me.

Two of my moving sayings I meditate on at times:

'With the energy of mindfulness, you can look into the garbage and say, "I am not afraid.
I am capable of transforming the garbage back into love."'

Thich Nhat Hanh

and

If a man [person] does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music he hears, however measured or far away.

-Henry David Thoreau


If all else fails, rock out to Leonard Skynard!

Peace All
Trina

miss u HT
peace and healing thoughts your way

:)
I've been here reading HT-just unable to communicate. A bit of writers block or turned too far within myself to offer compassion to others :(
Hope all is well with u

Thank you HT! That touched my heart and gave me inspiration!

Lets all go sit in the periwinkle patch with Opus, and watch the sunset!

Shall we?

we are here for you. i am glad you posted.

Good morning!!
GREAT POSTS everyone. Living in the 'real world' and accepting what our 'real life' is; takes courage in this era. Some mornings it is 'right there' and other mornings I have to dig deep to find it. One thing I am thankful for; is this season of being able to get outside. I read a devotion a long time ago that I keep in my heart which reminded me that we were created to be outdoors as well as other creatures. "Live outdoors as much as possible; for greater healing", it encouraged. Depression and anxiety has always been there; yes. But we people have fallen into 'seclusion'; which makes our issues worse. I agree with many of the comments here. As much as I feel encouraged by the posts here from people I have never laid eyes on; or sat and had a cup of tea or coffee with; they can not replace 'real people' and the interaction of them and the physical objects such as reading a hard copy of a book-if you can. Nor can email replace the joy of receiving real 'snail mail' in the mail box; the joy of hearing a friendly voice on the telephone; or a personal visit from or to a friends. Sometimes 'we' have to find a way to bring 'joy' to another even when we don't feel joy at that moment; to receive 'our own joy inside'. As hard as it is...it is better to give than to receive. That includes the giving of 'us' when we are able; to become stronger inside. I don't always have that energy; but even the smallest effort and act leave a print on me and another. Remembering I am not alone in my struggles gives me encouragement to continue to fight the good fight. Pressing on.....

Post Edited (Matina) : 6/17/2015 8:21:11 AM (GMT-6)

Well Posted Matina!

I agree. We do need people. I am a teacher, my program wanted to go to computers for instruction for the older students. I didn't agree. I said students need real teacher interaction.

I will try to remember this thought when I just want to come home and stay in my room by myself.

On the flip.side it is awesome to have this group, where everyone understands how difficult it can be. We can express our feelings without the fear of the listener thinking we are crazy.

While I have friends that listen and give each lots of advice, they think it is something that I can just move on from. They really don't understand. I tried to tell one that it is a brain issue. Where some can take the dips in life and get right back my dips take me to a place that is harder to get out of. I don't want them thinking I am crazy.