Hello New here just want to introduce myself

Hello,
I'm new here and very happy to have become part of this group. I'm 60 years old, married with 4 step children and one son of my own and 9 grand-kids.

Recently, I suddenly lost my dear best friend of 40 years. It was the most traumatic loss I've experienced in my entire life and am still having a very difficult time coming to terms with it. I feel very lost, empty and very out of sorts. Prior to her passing away, I lost my grandmother, who I was very fortunate to have had as long as I did ...not many are so fortunate to have a grandmother into their late 50's.

Now I find myself no longer with my elders nor my best friend. It's partly my fault, I moved away nearly 20 years ago from most of my family and friends when I began my relationship with my now husband. My life has been so consumed by my life with my husband, my step kids and then their new arrivals, I failed to cultivate new relationships with friends of my own. His friends became my friends, most of the people were males with a few females tossed in, but the females came and went and I never really bonded with any of them. So now I find myself feeling friendless and even more depressed then usual.

Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember, even as a child I was depressed. I've gotten used to it simply because it has become such a constant part of my life. I've tried the meds but never really felt comfortable taking them. I take the natural route when things get to me, I meditate, it helps. Lately though the depression has been hard because it's interfering with my sleep. I hope it will pass, presently I taking passion Flower tintures before bed after I drink a Valerian tea one hour before.

Thanks for taking the time to read my post & PEACE to everyone!

Charlene 867

Hi Charlene and welcome to the forum.

I hope you can make some new friends to fill the void. I know how it gets to be consumed with the hubby's life and all that goes on with him. I have kind of done the same thing. Then when he goes off on his own, I am stuck alone. Happens all the time.

I am glad you meditate, I do too. It helps a lot. And practicing mindfulness helps me too. Though I am not always good at it. I try hard.

I hope that things get better. Keep posting and hang in there.

Hugs, Karen...

Good morning! Thanks for your warm responses, it's a good feeling to know I have support out there for me.
I'm interested to hear more about "Mindfulness", I've not heard this practice and would like to hear about your experience "Form Moderator" ?

I wish you a wonderful day <3

"Feelings are something I have not something I am" (Food for thought) PEACE & Love