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Posted 3/22/2016 4:42 PM (GMT 0)
Good Day, all—
I apologize for being gone for so long. I hope all are as well as can be expected. I have thought of all of you often and fondly.

I lost the job I got back in October. It was likely just as well I did, because it required me to function at a very high level, and when a fibro flare kicked in, that was almost impossible to do consistently. It was a lot of stress, which exacerbated the flare. While I was working, I spent a lot of my down time just recovering, which only worked for so long until pain/brain fog kicked in. I had no extra energy, either mental or physical. Enough about that.

I refuse to allow this set-back to bring me down. Success is getting up again when you fail. I exercise regularly, which is the best way for me to keep my body and mind functioning. I meditate often. I set a plan every day. I reframe my thoughts positively whenever I notice myself getting down. I am working on several issues consistently, trying to fight addictive behavior.

Be well and remember to be here and now.
Posted 3/22/2016 6:06 PM (GMT 0)
NO apologies needed.

I have stress over this laptop. Time for ipads or a new laptop..

I understand how you feel, last 2 days, I just can not leave the house, the back yard with the dogs is the best I can do.

Fog is better today. I see my Psych tomorrow, perhaps that will make me better.

We have to do what we can, when we can.

I have finally excepted, since 2011, that I will not be working again. And if be some miracle I do, it will NOT be at the level I was functioning at. Hard piece of knowledge to process.

Take of yourself, thanks for checking in.

Peace and gentle hugs.
Trina
Posted 3/22/2016 7:21 PM (GMT 0)
Hey M09,

Sorry to hear your news. You certainly have the right attitude though, and I'm glad you're able to keep your perspective. The oil crash has taken many of my friends out of the workforce, and their response runs the gamut from "ACK! IMANA JUMP!" to "Ahhh, now I have time to work on my art." I'm still employed, thankfully. ***knocks on wooden desk***

Take good care of yourself, and good luck job hunting. :)
Posted 3/23/2016 9:29 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for posting Myself. I hope you are feeling well. Sorry about your situation. I hope that things get better soon.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 3/23/2016 9:36 AM (GMT 0)
many healing thoughts of strength I send.
Posted 3/23/2016 12:26 PM (GMT 0)
Trina-I hope yesterday was better for you. Finally"processing the knowledge" that work as it used to be will not be in my future hurts terribly. Hope today's doc visit goes well. BTW- I bought an HP Stream last year- cheap but decent.

Thanks F-27. The job market is okay where I am--I just bring to the table several complicated skills. Knock wood for your own job.

Karen-Thanks. Things will get better soon. I am not letting myself get so far into depression this time, and so retain a realistic hope that things will indeed get better.

My thanks, Turtle. Healing thoughts are good.
Posted 3/23/2016 12:35 PM (GMT 0)
I have learned that just because I'm not 'employable' does not mean I am in any way 'less than'.

I have a magnet on my refrigerator that says, "I do many things well, none of which generate income."

I had to find other ways to get that 'job well done' feeling. I had to find other ways to keep in contact with other people. I had to find another reason to get out of bed in the morning, get dressed and get outside. For me, the answers were found in my garden, joining a volunteer committee, and getting a dog.

Most folks don't get it...being unemployed and being unemployable are two different things. We lose more than a job and a paycheck. If we are not careful, we lose ourselves. It took me a year in therapy to change my mindset from "I'm disabled" to "I'm retired".
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