No where to turn.

Hello everyone.
I'm new to this site so I'm not sure how to do this.
I'm a single mother of 3. Ages 15, 6, and 5. 2 boys and a girl.
I currently cope with bi polar, depression and anxiety with I have noticed anger being introduced in this equation as well.
I am starting to get to the point of hopeless in my life. I stay with my family due to my having issues with a job. I find all factors playing a part on me keeping a job. I feel like the worse parent in the world all my kids hate me ( stated by my children) I can't shake this depression.
2013 I had a break down and tried to commit suicide. I'm not to that point but it's hard because I really have no one to talk to in the area. My trust is completely ruined with people around here due to what my ex did and playing his head games with me. Oh my goodness I am a mess.
I want to be a good mom to my children but I find myself grumpy and yelling I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm a bad mother and I'm so worried about so much. Anyways thank you for listening.

It's super painful to listen to your child tell you that she hates you and she wishes she could live with someone else. There is so much stress from having to stay with my family. I have tried a couple different counclers but my trust is pretty much shot with this small area I area I live in.

I am sorry to hear of your stress and your depression.

A therapist can help, as can a psych doc (with meds.) Learning coping skills can go along way to developing some emotional equilibrium.

Kids say a lot of things. I wouldn't believe 95% of it. They get sad, frustrated, angry, and overwhelmed,like the rest of us. The problem is that they have a harder time expressing themselves,and have little experience of life. If we have trouble, imagine how they feel!! We all know where to hit those closest where it hurts. So,take what the kids say with a grain of salt. The important thing for you is YOU--you deserve to feel better.