Ben:
We have a lot of similarities, age is not one of them.
But feelings wise, we have a lot in common.
Really sensitive. OK.
I could have written your post, last week, last century. The feelings don't go away.
Well, you said, you might be depressed, so that could be part of the answer.
I'm manic-depressed, so you could also be that.
You're like, whacked out. You over feel things.
You need to watch it if you have one person in your life, for that one person could walk, and you're in big trouble.
You need more people in your life. You need to do volunteer work, since you're home schooled, like in a hospital, or walking a dog at a dog pound.
If you put everything on one person, all of your eggs in one basket, remember that one?
I have the same situation you do. I met this woman when I was trying to find bikes on the internet. On nice, oh needed me, bad. Right. Great situation. Wrong.
She could see me, she could see that I was sensitive, a little bit lonely, yeah. Hey, one time, even a little bit of snuggle time. Whoa! She was playing my emotions like a violin.
And within a week of the brief snuggle time, and a few I love you's thrown in for good measure, she hit me up for a loan cause, well, cause her house would be ruined, and her life, I think she said, and I was the only one who could...because I was the only one who cared!
Right. Anyway, she had it down pat, and I fell like a rock.
Well, l loved her. Right. And she loved me. Right? No way. Well, as soon as I came around with my end of the bargain she bailed.
I'm just saying, be careful. But I did get wrapped up in her. Probably a lot of that was my manic-depression, where my feelings just go through the roof.
Oh, thinking about
her every second, please. It was my mania. And my loneliness.
So you're really going through some deep emotions here.
You said"
"but every single time we arent together i have been feeling extremely sad and depressed and worthless and almost to the point of crying (i actually cried when she left earlier today) and i feel like this right after she leaves and it's killing me."
It's almost your emotions more than her, just like with me. Your emotions overrun the situation, just like with me.
As you already know, you (and me) need to slow it down. We both need to get out more.
I'm just saying, you're going to have some pretty high high's. and some pretty low low's, so be ready.
You get so high over her, and so low when she's not there, what, early manic-depression? You might want to look that up on the net and see what you think. I think even the age it can break out is what, 18-23? Mine was about
28, and I didn't know what hit me.
This could be an early warning. I'm not saying it is, I'm saying it could be. You decide.
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 7/14/2016 7:11:04 PM (GMT-6)