Is it worth it anymore?

So much going on right now. My depression is so bad. I am tired and have had 2 anxiety attacks in less than a week. I can't do this anymore. It is becoming to much for me to deal with. I am not so tired and it is hard to sleep. I am sorry that I have been gone for a while but things have been so busy and hard. I am not sure how much more I can deal with any of this at this point.

I hope that everyone is well. I will for sure be back soon as I am need of serious help. I hope that things will work out for everyone. Be well all.

Keep hope, it is worth it. There is so much to look forward to, you can make it past this. Just take it one day at a time, consider it a small road block that you can get around...You can and will fight through it.
Maybe see your doctor or counselor or give your counselor a call, you might need a medication or a medication adjustment...
Keep us posted...

SF:

You posted at 3:15 a.m. in the morning.

What are you doing up at that time of the night?

(You said, "it is hard to sleep." )

I was asleep at 3 a.m., but only because I took "Power to Sleep" from the health food store.

I also take Lithium and Mirtazapine anti-dep., but that alone doesn't get me to sleep.

I also used to have to take Ativan tranqualizer with my other two doctor meds, to get to sleep, but not taking the Power to Sleep.

Because I had neighbors who let their dog bark early in the morning, and if I didn't behave, they would let him bark at 6 a.m.
I wasn't getting much sleep, and was having chest pain.

(Sound sleep machines can also be used to knock out noise from outside, and can be seen and bought on the net.)

I was taking so much medicine to get to sleep, I couldn't get up the next morning until about 11 a.m.

After cleaning the kitchen, cooking, eating breakfast, it would sometimes be 2:30 p.m. before I could get out of the kitchen from eating breakfast.

This morning, I got up at 9:30 a.m. Big difference. Got some extra things done, got out of the kitchen at about 11:30. Big difference between 11:30 and 2:30. Three hours difference.

I was taking Melatonin health food store item for sleep, but it made me so groggy in the morning, I still couldn't get up before about 11 o'clock.

So I switched from Melatonin to Power to Sleep health food store sleep aid, and it made me less groggy.

(from taking the health store sleep aid, I was able to quit taking the Ativan tranqualizer, so I wasn't as groggy in the a.m. and could get up earlier.)

(Also, what's happening is, in addition to getting up earlier, I'm going to bed earlier (12 midnight or 1 a.m, instead of 2:30 a.m.).

That means I'm eating breakfast earlier, and therefore lunch earlier, and therefore supper earlier, at 10 p.m. instead of midnight.

After I eat supper and a snack, I go to bed at midnight or so, not 2:30 in the a.m. So getting up earlier, gets me to bed earlier that night, which gets me up earlier the next day.

Someone on this board also mentioned "Alteril" as a health store sleep aid, and others can be listed and bought on the net, or at a health food store.

gamer,

Put your fingers on the side of you neck and press gently.

Feel that? it is your pulse. That is your purpose. As long as the pulse is there, a purpose lives in you and keeps the light burning.

Some times like now, you can not always see it. This will pass, it always does.

Think of the times before when you were so down, you thought you would never get out of that hole! However you did!

You are strong and courage. Use your skills. You are a good person. Challenge those negative thought loops, how dare the try to say bad and mean things about you now. That was the past! Those thoughts do not belong in the present.

We are here for and wish you strength and peace
Trina

Jess, I hope you are okay. Post and let us know.

Hugs, Karen...