Two things that upset me yesterday!

Hello, everybody.

Post Edited (Cappuccino) : 8/21/2017 8:49:13 AM (GMT-6)

This is what you call your past coming back to haunt you. If you tell people about being in jail, and what for, they are probably not going to want to be around you for fear of you doing that to them.

You may not be able to avoid the consequences of the past.

I think working on your agoraphobia and the anxiety is the best thing you could do right now. I am glad you made an appointment.

For now, maybe chill out.

Learn not to need other people's approval. We don't need other people to complete us or even entertain our thoughts. Learn to like yourself for who you are.

Peter, I can emphathize with what you say, for the most part. The times I get tripped up is when you call yourself a victim. I understand you have autism spectrum, and I cannot know what you deal with. But repeatedly engaging in the same behavior and expecting a different outcome is not being victimized.

The title 'victim' implies someone who is acted upon by others, that the situation they are in is through no fault of their own. Perhaps it is time for you to recognize that making statements about jail time or medical issues on the internet CAN impact you. It might be a minor differentiation--but you opened this door, and now have to deal with the result.

If I am organizing a group--I am unlikely to include someone who openly tells me s/he was in jail. An artist of almost any genre has multitudes of fans, and are not likely in complete charge of their webpage or twitter feed. Regardless, any person who incessantly contacts me will get blocked--and I will go out of my way to ensure that no one associates me with them.

Many years ago, I had a student who had some serious mental health issues. He committed a couple of offenses (arson, illegal firearms, threats) and was ultimately arrested for carrying a concealed firearm on a college campus. The issues for me was that he somehow got my home number, and started calling. I do not know why,for I never answered nor returned his calls. Now, in my mind, I am protecting myself against someone who issued violent threats and carried a loaded firearm into my classroom. In his, I am sure he was just misunderstood.

When you put yourself in public, there is no way to stop people from forming their own opinions. And when they do, you should sit down and ask yourself why.

I applaud your attempts to broaden your life. I do think a therapist will be helpful for you--even an imperfect one will be able to be a sounding board for you. I wish you luck, friend.

You can choose what you want to do.

On line shopping is YOUR choice. Going to a park is your choice.

Riding a bikecycle is YOUR choose.

Peter, unplug for a couple hours, get out where there is grass. Sit and just read, doodle, people watch with out getting creepy.

You will be surprised how much more in control of your life you will feel.

Peace
Trina