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Posted 1/2/2017 10:52 AM (GMT 0)
Hello everyone
I have trolled various sites off and on for many years.. Just thought I would man off and try to express how I'm feeling. I've been on and off medication for my depression. Paxil was somewhat successful for about 15 yrs and just stopped working. My doctor (actually she's a nurse practitioner) decided it would be in my best interest to take me off Paxil and put me on Lamictal ( a mood stabilizer) I am currently experiencing the worst depression of my life. Think about suicide constantly. My situation is further complicated. I have a serious alcohol problem (alcoholic) I've been drinking periodically for a couple of months - it does temporarily lift the depression. The man I've shared my life with for the past 25yrs is a recovering alcoholic and constantly takes away my money credit card cards etc. Just a little more background he is a hoarder and can't change. I have a problem with AA - I'm an athiest so I have major problems with the program. To me the world is insane people are cruel or indifferent at best I don't know how much longer I can stand it
Thanks for letting me vent
sunnymbh
Posted 1/2/2017 10:57 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Sunny (seniormoments)

I am glad you stopped in. I think it is strange that they took you off of Paxil and put you on Lamictal, unless they figure you could be bi-polar. You need something to treat the depression. Have you thought about seeing a psychiatrist? They know a lot more about depression and how to treat it.

Drinking only makes depression worse. You may feel better for a little bit, but it is a depressant and you are going to be depressed when it wears off. I hope you can stop.

I seriously think a psychiatrist could help. If you are atheist, can you ignore the mentions of cristianity things during the AA meetings? You really need help with drinking. It isn't going to help your situation only hinder.

I hope you feel better soon. Depression is no fun.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 1/2/2017 9:18 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Sunny,

Welcome aboard. Hope to see you around the forum. smile
Posted 1/2/2017 10:19 PM (GMT 0)
Many questions.

How do you drink and take medicine?
Posted 1/2/2017 10:57 PM (GMT 0)
Sunny,

Welcome, I see hope in your Soul from your choice of member name.

As you know drinking with meds is a disaster waiting to happen. I hope you have told your doc that you are an alcoholic so they can help you properly.


Sunny, I am going to suggest something. There is no such things as "can not be helped". A person can heal if they choose to what help. I am going to give you links to programs non-regligous based. If, and I hope with all my heart to do, find one; then propose a deal with your partner.

"I dry out, you get help for your hoarding, we BOTH go to therapy. Together of apart. "

I would like you to know that in the United States, which it sounds like where you live, there are so many options for addiction recovery it is mind boggling and a little disheartening for those of us that suffer from trauma, PTSD and unknown depression factors.

I hope to take advantage of the opportunities. Also, hoarding is a addiction.

Here are the links:


www.recovery.org/topics/alcohol-and-drug-addiction-recovery/

www.addictioncareoptions.com

/www.cdc.gov/alcohol/about.htm

some on hoarding:

www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/hoarding-disorder/basics/definition/con-20031337

mentalhealthtreatment.net/hoarding/

Peace
Trina
Posted 1/3/2017 2:16 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you for all your kindness and concern. Will definitely check out the websites suggested. Can't seem to stop crying right now and I hardly ever cry..will keep you posted.
Posted 1/3/2017 2:09 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Sunny, Keep us posted on how things are going.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 1/3/2017 7:08 PM (GMT 0)
Welcome to the forum. I'm glad you posted.

There was a sentence in the book Alcoholics Anonymous that had a great impact on me.

"Do not let any prejudice you may have against spiritual terms deter you from honestly asking yourself what they mean to you." page 47, 4th Edition

I have a good sober friend who is Athiest. I admire his sobriety and his intellectual observations on working a 'spiritual' program amongst 'believers' while not believing the same things. There are like minded people and in some areas, they have gotten together and started meetings that follow the 12 steps, somewhat modified, for their needs.

I have sponsored Athiests successfully. It is not impossible, as long as both parties are willing to meet "in the middle". I respect their position, they respect mine. Terminology can be worked with.

I encourage you to explore recovery options.
Posted 1/4/2017 7:29 PM (GMT 0)
Crying can be a good thing, especially if you have been holding it in for years. I know.

It has been clinically proven that treats have toxicans in them that the body is releasing. How about them applies!


Peace
Trina
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