Why am I hopeless?

I never wanna change my life anymore. It’s like my body wants to be this way. I try making my self happy. I’m kinda thinking my depression is caused by PTSD. But who gets PTSD from a highschool girlfriend break up. I know that is terrible but I actually think I cared about her that much. And when it ended I was in my worse feelings and thoughts. Now I have thoughts and feelings still and I express them by writing a book. This book is my savior and helping hand I needed.

Welcome to the forum!

You are not hopeless! Plus you are not alone!

Journaling is a great tool to use with PTSD. I have been using it for 8 years.

There are other ways to handle it also. I have going to post a link to a free site that I use on a weekly basis to inspire me, keep on the positive side of daily life.

https://www.mindful.org/the-magnificent-mysterious-wild-connected-and-interconnected-brain/

Keep posting here so we can support you in your progress. Many of us are going or have been thru what you are dealing with.

Peace and strength
Trina

Thank you all!! Yeah this was my first break up and it hit me the hardest. about 8 months and I still feel it 2 years later. My depression got more noticeable after it and it hurts me. Not physically but mentally. I don’t like medication because it changes my personality and makes me feel secluded. The person I talk to the most about my thoughts and feeling wants me to get help and Im willing but. Medications never work really well with me since I have health issues. Such as Cystic Fibrosis. I plan to seek help but need the right meds this time.

You are not alone. A first love (and break up) is very traumatic. I like that you are writing your thoughts and experiences in your book. I also like the saying:

"What we can feel, we can heal."

So, let the tears come and cleanse your spirit. Your heart is not hardened and that is a GOOD thing!