Hi. I am a long-term member here. I have been on Disability for a decade now. I have been BATTLING "the depression" for a decade now. I've been through a lot on top of Depression, including surviving Ovarian Cancer.
I recently took samples of a very effective but much too expensive drug called "Rexulti." I gained 26 lbs immediately. I would wake up famished and noticed that I would enjoy eating heaps of cereal and then refilling the bowl. Carbs. Carbs. Carbs. I never craved protein or produce and my cravings were bad. PLEASE SHARE ENCOURAGING THOUGHTS and ADVICE about
this. I need it.
I went off of the drug and I was okay. I still suffered a "low-grade" depression. My biggest complaint is excessive sleepiness. I can stay up about
5-6 hours and then need a nap. I also went off of the drug because I figured it was also the culprit for my hyper-somnolence.
I have also been diagnosed "HypoThyroid" with a unique inability for T4 to convert to T3, which is the only thing that matters. The problem is, I no longer trust my Specialist. Not only am I paying out of pocket for something new called "Armour Thyroid" but I do not feel better and what the hey, I thought I would LOSE weight.
Yesterday, I feel into a pretty deep depession and decided I better come back here. Why? Because depressed people are the only people who understand what depression FEELS like.
What does your depression "feel like?"
Yesterday, I got up and got dressed and brushed my teeth. I had to get blood work with fasting done so I did not get to drink coffee and sit on the couch with my heating pad on my back. My car does not start. I am literally feeling like a ZOMBIE and like my head is a bobble head. I'm driving, everything looks dingy and dirty and ugly. My car is dirty inside and out. I feel unkept. I feel completely out of control. My personal standard for living is the opposite and thoughts of "why are we all doing this?" (just life). What is the point of all of this? The hardest thoughts are those that remind me that "other people have energy and actually enjoy life." I then feel like a victim to this horrible affliction of depression. It is such a BATTLE and it never ends.
Post Edited (kellyinCali) : 1/19/2019 7:48:56 PM (GMT-7)