Depression comes back

i've been up for about 2 hours and got very depressed. i am using a spanish learning software and having trouble with it, there doesn't seem to be a way to fix the problem. but the most important thing is that it is grey, overcast and raining. this scares me. i can relate to it by thinking about what a lonely childhood i had, surrounded by people but no one to really share my fears with (dysfunctional alcoholic family). i have turned on lots of lights in the house. i am utterly disillusioned about ever quitting smoking (although i do have people in my 12 step program i can turn to). i just needed to check in. i do have hope that the depression will lift. i have bipolar support meeting later this morning and i will go.

Hi Rich,

I am sorry for what you are going through. I find when the days get shorter I tend to get down. Maybe some vitamin D3 would help??? And yes mornings are more depressing for me too. As the day goes on, I tend to feel better.

I too am glad you are going to the support meeting. I hope it helps. Hang in there. We are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen...

Older Guy, is the weather in your area supposed to get better soon? When do the meteorologists think the rain will stop and the sun will come out?

Hi Rich

I get that sneaky depression. Both parents were drinkers, mother was also addicted to pain killers

Rain use to depress me constantly, the reason being, I could not go out and escape my family. I was the black sheep, 2 older sibling did not like me. I was literally cinderella with a ball to go to.

Now a days, I can listen to rain most times with pleasure if I use mindfulness, which is getting easing by the day. Daily practice is the key, I have found.

Group is a huge help, at times. I go sporadicly now.

Peace and strength
Trina