Hi. I'm new here.

Hi. Recent!y diagnosed with major depressive disorder after a few years bout with anxiety and depression. I

I am 51 and female. I am taking lexapro at 10mg for two weeks now. The darkness is lessening and I have a therapist who I see weekly. Anxiety is lessening a little and I take lorazepam on the really tough days.

My life started spinning out of control in 2016 and I have yet to get a handle. Death of my father, unwanted divorce, loss of home, best friends moved, empty nest, menopause, dog death, loss of job with same employer for 30 years, older brother and only siblings incarceration, loss of health insurance which is fun when dealing with mental illness.

My support right now is my long suffering mentally ill mother who has been barely hanging on through all of the same issues. Looking forward to sharing and hopefully helping others in this journey.

Post Edited (Teaberry) : 8/19/2020 10:05:44 AM (GMT-6)

Hi Karen. Nice to meet you. Thanks for your reply.

I pay out of pocket for therapy and meds. Unfortunately, I make too much for any help and not enough to afford a premium that includes any mental health, scripts, vision or dental. Not too mention the 7500.00 deductible that needs met.

My mom has struggled since I can remember. I was her only support after dad passed and older brother was incarcerated. Physically and financially she is ok. She understands where I am but not much she can do.

I have sought out therapy as needed in my life. I am trying my best to get it but dont fully understand yet. May take years I guess.

I just went inpatient at the beginning of this month. Wellbutrin did not help me and made me worse with dark dark thoughts. I haven't gotten the bill yet but cash price is supposed to be fifty five percent less. What little savings I have, I don't qualify for help.

My dogs were my life. My former hated them even though he brought many home and approved others . He started throwing things at them, knocking them off sofa and moving them out of his way by kicking them. It was horrible. I told him if a person treated pets that way, they would treat people that way ........

Just looking for support with folks who understand. Again, thank you.

Hi Teaberry,

I love dogs too and if anybody hurt mine, I don't know what I would do. I am pretty protective over her.

It is a shame that you can't get affordable insurance.

There are a lot of good books on mental health and different therapies. I read one called Feeling Good or The New Mood Therapy by Dr. David Burns. It is an older book but it is a good book. And there are many others.

I have tried Wellbutrin a couple different times. The last time I tried it, I became agitated. So I went off of it. Before it gave me insomnia. And gave me a weird taste in my mouth.

I have to disagree with OceanFisher about aging and life getting worse, though he may be older than I am and have more experience. And I might be in for a rude awakening, but I have found the older I get the more content I am and the happier I am. Though I have always been relatively happy in my life. Though some things are harder physically, I find mentally I am doing okay. Though I can give some of the credit to my medications. Life wouldn't be easy without them.

I am glad you have found us. Take care, I hope you have a good rest of the day.

Hugs, Karen...

Me also OceanFisher. We never know what lies ahead for us. I am thankful to still be here.

Hugs, Karen...

Teaberry, I hope you are feeling well.

Hugs, Karen...