Feeling Old and Tired...

I'm so tired with how things are going in my life. I'm mentally exhausted!

As some off you know, I started an online business in an attempt to get another stream of income. I just opened it a few weeks ago, so I know that it's going to take a while to get some hits, but it's a bit discouraging when not a lot of people have even view your shop. To top it off, I'm so tired thinking constantly of ways to revamp and make shop more appealing. I wake up thinking about my online business and go to bed tired thinking about my online business. I'm mentally drain.

Then there's the fact that time is flying by. This got me thinking about what exactly I've done with my life and what I want to happen. When I spoke to my therapist, I told her that I don't even have any goals for my personal life. Yeah, I want to be successful with my online business, to the point I can do it full time, but that really relates to my financial/ career. It's like I'm numb thinking about my personal future.

My therapist asked what do I want to achieve personally, and I really don't know. I don't know if I want to have children, be in a relationship, etc. The thing is if I decide I want certain things, like children, whether naturally or adoption, I have to decide soon as I'm getting older.

At times, I feel like I'm stranded in the middle of an ocean, surrounded by fog, and I have no sense of direction or know where to go.