Thanks for the comments. I guess I did not say anything about
meds. I do take them I am on prozac, I just had them increased. I thought I be smart and take half of the dosage, because I was feeling better. Wrong, can't do that. I started to feel really bad, to the point I wanted to end it all. But the medication does help, so I listen to my doctor. I do feel somewhat better, but I still have these black cloud days, so I try to control them the best I know how. I'm glad I found a place where people understand. Keep in touch. Piano